A day before the show, nagka-heart attack ako nang nalaman ko na namatay ang daddy ng pianist namin for the show. Paano na?! He opted to stay because he needed the fee. Nakaka-attack ng heart ang kanyang situation. At ito ang realidad ng buhay.
Muntik na ako magka-heart attack sa kaba last Saturday, akala ko walang manonood. Na-heart attack ako sa dami ng tao. Muntik na akong isugod sa ICU when I found out that my family, relatives, community members, and friends came to support the show. It was overwhelming to know that people were there to show their support and love for you. Ang daming tao sa Eastwood. Parang hindi nauubos. Habang lumalalim ang gabi, lalong dumadami ang tao. Mostly, people came in pairs.
I went to church today. Nung peace be with you moment na, “Huli ka!” sabi ng radar ko. Daming mga mag-syota at mag-asawang nagsisimba ng magkasama. What a sight to behold! Gusto ko sana pa-affect kaso I was pre-occuppied kaya okay lang ako.
Nag-jogging ako kaninang hapon, nakita ko na naman yung mag-asawang matanda na naglalakad na magka-holding hands. Sapul! Yun na! Heart attack na ang effect sa akin! Aray! (sighs)
Two weeks before Valentine’s Day, and everything I see around me simply reminds me of the day. Nakaka-pressure! Culture and peer pressure. I remember answering a guy two days before February 14 when I was in high school, just to make sure I would have a date at the V-day gimmick. Then two days after the V-day, I broke up with him. My reasons were so lame that I couldn’t even remember now how I pulled it through.
Don’t get the impression that I’m depressed and whining. The simple fact is, I’m human and I have feelings. Wala masyadong malalim na pinanggagalingan ito.
People come to me and ask how come I don’t have a boyfriend? Have I closed my doors to that idea? Honestly, it’s not really in my priority list, but then again, if God sends me someone, thank you.
People, in general, have these notions about people in the industry when it comes to love and relationship.
1. Men are swooning and they’re everywhere. It’s easy to get a good catch.
2. Pasahan naman ng BF ang mga artista.
3. Relationships don’t last in this business.
To defy these beliefs:
1. Yes it’s true that men are everywhere, but it doesn’t mean na type mo yung nasa paligid mo. As far as I can remember, parang mas madami pa yata akong suitors when I wasn’t an artista yet. Since I became an artist, my social life suffered due to my working hours. Meaning, wala akong nakikilalang mga tao na merong enough courage to ask me out. Siguro, malakas din ang personality ko. Kasalanan ko na naman ba yun?
2. The irregular workin hours don’t give us the oppurtunity to meet people other than the ones we work with. That’s a major reason why people fall in love with each other. That rings true for people working at the offices.
3. Relationships do last and can last. Like normal couples, showbiz couples fight. It just so happen that we are in the limelight. The lovers quarrel then becomes a national issue. Yung mga pa-cute na away, dahil lumaki na, pinanindigan na lang.
Ngayon, sa tingin niyo ba masisi niyo na naman yung mga taong nagiging mag-syota dahil nagkatrabaho? Nope. Companionship and proximity play a very big part in a relationship. Iba…nakaka-heart attack ang realities na ito.
My sister and I had a Koreanovela marathon. We finished watching Coffee Prince, nakakakilig! Gusto ko na naman ma-in love. Lahat na naman ng tsinito and alike, merong ibang charm sa akin.
I also just finished watching Brothers and Sisters. The series is about family and the lives and love that brings them together and apart. Ouch! After finishing these two series, I am in love with love and finding, waiting for the right one to come. Love is worth watching as it unfolds before our very own eyes. Ibang heart attack ang ibinigay sa akin ng dalawang series na ito. Talagang bulls eye ang attack sa weakness ng heart ko as a person. (sighs)
Muntik ng magka-heart attack ang nanay ko sa akin dati, dahil parang nagpapa-cute na ako sa mga tambay sa kalye namin. Iyan naman ang effect sa akin ng movie na Maging Sino Ka Man, with the Megastar Sharon Cuneta and Robin Padilla. Pag-uwi ko, ang feeling ko, ang guguwapo ng mga tambay sa amin.
Same thing with Batang Quiapo, na sina Maricel Soriano and FPJ ang lead. After watching the movie, I wanted to transfer to Quiapo area.
What’s my point?
Love is infectious and contagious.
Ngayon na wala naman akong Valentino, nagiging sensitive ako lately. Ka-level ito ng emotions ko just before I celebrate my birthday. Kahit saan ako pumunta, merong nakasabit na heart. On the radio, they play love songs repeatedly. Tapos naka-hang all over the area’ang mga puso, puso, puso! Bakit kailangan puso? Bakit hindi na lang pusod or bilbil? Kahit nga bilbil mo na ang isabit, ma-trim down lang ng konti yung heart attack all over the archipelago.
‘Di naman ako really bothered sa situation ko until all these things came up. Until I noticed that other people have something that I don’t…It simply makes me wonder when, how, where, and who will be my next Valentino.
For now, let me share the love with my son, family and friends.
Or maybe, I have been spending so much time not loving myself and losing that gift of dignity. Maybe, God wants me to love myself, to appreciate my humanness and the whole package. The hardest lesson I learned about love is that “you cannot give what you don’t have.” Ouch! (Mas malalim na sigh)
To everyone, Happy Valentine’s Day. Love yourself so that your partner will know how to love you. Be loving and lovely.
To the singles, worry not. Yearly naman merong Valentine’s Day kaya for sure makakapag-celebrate din tayo with someone one of these days. someone worth it…
TO ALL THE SINGLE WOMEN: Drink, Be Merry and stay gorgeously single as we await for the man of our dreams… our very own Coffee Prince.
