"I'm still dreaming, I'm still hoping, kasi ang gusto ko, eh, something.  Nothing is permanent here in our world. But, I want something semi- permanent, someone who will be with you till the end of your life," Carmi said.

 

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Versatile actress Carmi Martin openly shared the reason why she is still single in an exclusive interview with PEP (Philippine Entertainment Portal) after taping for her new sitcom TV5's MyDSL: My Driver Sweet Lover at Sanctuary Village in Mandaluyong City.

She plays the role of an orphanage caretaker who will have a conflict with one of the lead roles, played by Danita Paner.

Asked about the status of her lovelife, Carmi said she is not seeing anyone at the moment. She added, "Alam mo, minsan nga parang nakakaiyak, kasi that is my greatest dream, to have my own family," she said.

"I am still hoping that it will happen," the 46-year-old actress said.

She went on and shared some learning from her church, "Parang 'yun ang ginagawa ko, eh, while waiting for something that you really like, you feel the empty jars that are surrounding you.

"Meaning to say, use your talent. Don't just sit there and wait parang feeling miserable. Kasi, sometimes, we feel miserable and desperate, di ba?"

Carmi admitted that there are times when she can't help but worry. "Kaya lang, minsan nagiging scary, parang ang nakikita ko ngayon, just like other women, mahirap humanap, most especially here in the Philippines.

"Parang ang dami 'atang either married, o ang gusto niya to marry another man, or babaero, o, masama ang ugali," Carmi sighed.

Carmi related that her experiences in previous relationships made her cautious in giving her heart away.

"It's the way I look at it, baka kasi ang hinahanap nila 'yung challenging ganyan, ganyan." Carmi said that she oftentimes has second thoughts about the true intentions of her suitors.

And then she added, "...pagka andun naman 'yung mabait, feeling ko boring!" Carmi burst out in a resounding laugh.

She said her friends tell her she may be afraid of commitment. 

"My friends are saying, 'Alam mo, tingin namin sa 'yo, ganyan ganyan ka lang,' pero mukha daw akong takot mag -asawa. Kasi, even in our bible studies pag naririnig ko na 'yong mga hinanakit ng mga misis, 'Naku ano ba iyan, ayaw ko marinig iyan!'"

Whimsically she confessed, "Pero, I'm still dreaming, I'm still hoping, kasi ang gusto ko, eh, something.  Nothing is permanent here in our world. But, I want something semi- permanent, someone who will be with you 'till the end of your life.

YOUNGER SUITORS. Carmi stressed that she just can't see herself dating younger guys .