Kris Aquino does not fear losing her fame and fortune. Being prone to allergies, she dreads getting gravely sick.
This is probably why she takes even the slightest symptoms very seriously.
In an exclusive interview with PEP.ph (Philippine Entertainment Portal), the I Love You, Hater actress said her fear is how it would affect her children if she gets seriously ill.
"I don't want to be a burden. I don't want my sons seeing me suffer—just when nagba-bad allergy attacks ako, nai-stress na sila. So ayoko talaga yun."
PEP.ph caught up with the 47-year-old actress/host last May 13 during her PEP Headliner shoot at her new home in Quezon City.
Acknowledging anything can happen, Kris hopes for sudden death than a long illness.
"Yung, I know its weird, I know it sounds morbid, 'God kung kukunin mo ako, can I just die in my sleep? And can you make it fast and can you make it sudden?'
"I've seen it, I've seen the suffering. I also know the pain medication—given I'm allergic to all of that.
"It's a feeling na anong mangyayari as akin, kung yun ang magiging sakit ko, walang pain killers na puwede sa akin.
"So anong mangyayari? So ako talaga, 'God please ha, bilisan mo na lang kung kukunin mo rin ako, wag mo nang patagalin.'"
The Queen of All Media said she can face death square in the face because her experience with her parents' death had steeled her for the worst.
Her dad, Benigno Aquino Jr., was assassinated on August 21, 1983 upon his return to the country.
Her mom, former President Cory Aquino, suffered greatly before succumbing to colon cancer on August 1, 2009.
She narrated, "I know we all have to face death, and I can talk about death ganun-ganun na lang. Sabi nila, 'Bakit sa 'yo andali?' Sabi ko, 'Kasi I had to face it.'
"I had to face it with a father na gano'n kabilis namatay and a mother who went through it na medyo prolonged so I know."
Kris also hopes that her children—Josh and Bimby— will both be ready when the time comes.
She told PEP.ph, "Sabi ko talaga, ayoko lang talaga na to ever have to say those words to my sons that our mom told us na, 'I went through this because you guys were not ready, so I think you guys are ready now.'
"Yun lang pinagdadasal ko na sana I don't have to. I hope if the time does come that God says your time's up, I hope Bimb is mature enough and old enough that he can really take care of his kuya."