Nagsalita na saunang pagkakataon ang aktres na si Sheryl Cruz tungkol sa divorce nila ngkanyang asawa na si Norman Bustos sa presscon ng Komiks Presents Varga saABS-CBN kagabi, July 28. Mismong si Norman ang naglabas sa isang broadsheet nanaghiwalay na sila ni Sheryl, na ikinabigla ng marami, maging ng aktres mismo.
"Siyempre, painfulyung ganun. But like you know, a lot of people were hurt, not only me," panimulani Sheryl sa PEP (Philippine Entertainment Portal).
Na-shock din ba siyasa lumabas na balita?
"I already knew nameron nang ganung klaseng...parang decision. But I never knew that it was gonnacome out in the papers. But you know, it's better nga na huwag na natingpag-usapan," pigil sa pag-iyak na sabi ni Sheryl.
Agad ba niyangtinawagan o kinausap si Norman pagkatapos niyang mabasa ang write-up? Hindi baniya sinisi si Norman sa paglabas sa publiko ng balitang hiwalay na sila?
"Bakit ko siyasisisihin?" sabi ng dating child actress. "Unang-una sa lahat, everybody isentitled to their own decision, di ba? If you're not happy anymore andmiserable, it's better to get out of the relationship. I don't want himto be miserable all his life. Di ba, you don't want somebody who you love somuch to be in misery all the time?"
A CHILD IN THE MIDDLE. Pero dahil sa nangyari, maaaring ang naapektuhan dito ay ang kanilang seven-year-olddaughter na si Ashley, na sobrang pinuprotektahan daw ni Sheryl.
"Basta ang sa akin,what I can tell you and everybody naman siguro who's been in love, who's beenmarried, who has a kid, of course, gusto mo intact yung memories na ‘yon parasa child mo at hanggang paglaki to keep them whole. Kasi it doesn't meanna just because of a failed marriage, my daughter is not gonna be an adult whenshe grows up, or a person when she grows up.
"I mean, I beg todisagree. I'm better than that. I came from a good family. I have education, agood education, and I'm proud of my job. I know it's blood, sweat, and tears napinanggalingan ng kung anuman yung ibinibigay ko sa anak ko. I'm proud of itna wala akong hinihingian," pahayag ni Sheryl.
Naka-move on na basiya?
"I'm not gonna tellyou na yung pagmo-move on ko na totally naka-move on na ako, because I alwayshave my daughter to remind me of my husband. Whenever lumalabas, let's say mgaallergies ng anak ko or whatever, nahihiya siya. She has inherited geneticallydoon sa asawa ko. Siyempre, you cannot help but remember.
"My daughter, that'sher father, you know. And I don't want to do anything that will disrespect thatimage of her father to her. Kasi kapag naaalala ko naman nung time na nagbuntisako, nung time na nanganak ako, time na ikinasal kami, ano pang mga pangit namemories doon? Sabihin mo nga?
"I mean lahat yun,of course, they would always visit my mind. Not because of the failures in themarriage, but because of the good memories that you know you will never haveanymore," saad ni Sheryl.
THE REAL SCORE. May tsismis nahiwalay na raw sila ni Norman the time na dumating si Sheryl at si Ashley saPilipinas. Totoo ba ito?
"Actually, it's hardright now really to go in details. Basta yung sa akin, like any parent orfamily who wants a good future for their family, you would like to help eachother. Yun lang naman ang gusto ko, e. And not only that, I also wanted to seemy family who I haven't seen for a long time, di ba?
"I mean, it feels sogood because I'm home. I guess this is where I really belong because this is where I grew up. This is where I wasborn and hindi ko na maitatatwa na isa akong artista."
May lumalabas na isaraw sa mga dahilan ng hiwalayan nila ni Norman ay ang pagtanggi ni Sheryl nabumalik ng San Francsico kasama ang anak at makapiling ang mister, na doonnagtatrabaho bilang pulis. Mas gusto raw ni Sheryl na ipagpatuloy ang kanyangshowbiz career dito sa Pilipinas.
"Nakilala ako ngasawa ko, artista na ako," sabi ni Sheryl. "'Eto na yung pangalan ko. Alam naniya ‘eto ang trabaho ko. So for me to conform can probably tell you in volumeshow much I love him and still love him, because kung hindi ko ginawa yung mgathings na ginawa ko in the past, dahil sa pag-ibig," sabay tawa niya.
"I'm happy becausekung ano lang meron kami or kung ano lang yung kaya namin, di ba? But then, ofcourse, I cannot deny the fact na this is me, e. I mean, artista talaga ako.Hahanapin mo. How long have I been staying there [U.S.] na diretso, di ba? Turningdown offers left and right, and then I just took a chance. But then, this is metalaga. I have to be proud of my parents' job being actors and actresses and myauntie and my uncle because marangal na trabaho."
Si Sheryl aypanganay na anak ng dating aktres na si Rosemarie Sonora at ng yumaong aktor nasi Ricky Belmonte. Pamangkin siya ni Susan Roces na misis naman ng yumaong Haring Pelikulang Pilipino na si Fernando Poe Jr.
So, ang pag-aartistaniya talaga ang pumipigil sa kanya na bumalik ng Amerika and to be with herhusband Norman?
"No, no," tangginiya. "It's not the reason ng aming paghihiwalay. There are other differences Iguess. Pero ang sabi ko sa inyo, I really cannot tell you. Ang daya ninyo talaga!"
Paano niyaipinaliwanag kay Ashley na hiwalay na sila ni Norman?
"Well, my husband isalready in the States when this decision happened, and siyempre as a mom, youhave to decide na what is best for your daughter right now. Kasi siya yungkasama ko dito sa Pilipinas. I never want my daughter... I don't want to keep anysecrets for my daughter. As long as alam ko naman it is in her capacity tounderstand, di ba? Because my daughteris an intelligent person at yung mga kaedad niya ngayon, hindi mo na puwedengpagtaguan ng mga sikreto, especially ‘pag artista ka at ang inyong buhay aynadidyaryo at naite-televise at hindi lang yun, pati sa buong mundo, saInternet, di ba, kakalat?
"So, hihintayin kopa bang ibang tao ang magsabi sa anak ko? Mas mabuti na sabihin ko na sa kanyabilang ina niya," saad ni Sheryl.
Sinabi raw niya sa anak nahiwalay na sila nang mag-graduate si Ashley sa school. That time,nauna na raw lumabas sa mga diyaryo ang tungkol sa divorce nila ni Norman.
SHERYL KEEPS MUM ABOUT THE DIVORCE. Nang lumabas sapahayagan ang balitang nag-divorce na sila ni Norman, hindi nagpaunlak nginterview si Sheryl sa kahit saang talk show sa telebisyon o kahit sa diyaryo.
"I think I'm reallynot... Even now I can tell you I don't think I can go into details because it'songoing. The process is still ongoing and it still hurts. Every day it stillhurts. There are times na a song would remind you, di ba? Especially ‘pagartista ka because you're always in touch about your surroundings. Napaka-expressiveng isang artist. Napaka-emosyonal lalo na kapag gumagawa ka ng album.
"I'm actually gladbecause aside form Varga, that has been brought about by ABS-CBN, I have my WowMusic family and sometimes, you were able to express whatever your feeling inyour writing. So things you never thought you could do, I guess hindi mo talagamaitatanggi na nasa dugo mo. And I haveto thank my family sa Cruz side. Kasi that's my musical side, e. Kahit na i-tryto like say na wala na, it still goes back, e. And sometimes it just amazes you na you just can write a song or write my music and then you're able to express what you're feeling."
May ginawa siyangkanta para kay Norman?
"Marami na. Abanganninyo na lang."
Kailan sila hulingnagkausap ni Norman?
"The other daybecause it's my aunt's birthday today [July 28]. Before he talked to hisdaughter, he asked me if there was a celebration. So sabi ko, wala. She justwants to celebrate the way she wants to celebrate it. ‘Please give her mygreetings,' sabi niya."
Wala silang pinag-usapantungkol sa development ng divorce nila?
"Kayo talaga," ngitini Sheryle. "I mean, I would probably would share everything with you wheneverthings finalized. I'm not naman, hindi naman ako ganun kadamot. Yung akin lang kasi, whatever privacy probably Ican keep right now for myself, my family, for my daughter, to be able to spareeverybody else the heartache... Kasi although I know na this is between the twoof us, of course, it's affecting all those people who cares for you. Lahat ng mga naging parte ng buhayninyo."
EMPTY HOUSE. Totoo ba na masgusto ni Norman na bumalik na lang sila ng Amerika?
"It's hard toexplain kasi nga, di ba, I just bought a house here? Para sa amin nina Norman.Yeah, di ba, dahil gusto mo yun, e? Di ba, gusto mong makatulong in every wayyou can? Kung anuman yung mgainvestments ninyo, papalaguin ninyo."
May plano ba sila na rito na sa Pilipinas mag-settle down?
"It's not na Iwas planning to settle down here. It'sjust that I wanted to make a home forus here also because I can never deny the fact na I am Filipino, di ba? I mean,dito ako lumaki. I've been known as a Filipina actress, a Filipina singer, so it'sall over... The Internet has my history if they want to check it.
"I can never denythe fact even before I've met my husband, this is the life that I have and Ihave adjusted. I have conformed in ways that I can. Kaya nga lang, siyempreit's the expectations and I have fallen short of all those expectations na Iguess were asked or expected of me as a person. I'm just human, yun lang.
"But then, I guessit's unfair na kung ano ang nagpapasaya sa ‘yo ay hindi mo gagawin or hindi mosusuportahan or whatever. Kasi yun naman ang alam ko sa aming dalawa noon, e,nagsusuportahan kami for whatever it is na gustong gawin. Kahit ano pa, kahitgaano pa kadelikado, gaano pa kahirap. Yun yun, e, di ba?"
Ano ang plano niyangayon sa bahay na binili niya?
"Nandiyan siya. Siyemprepinaghirapan ko siya. It's for my daughter, di ba? That's gonna be for mydaughter."
Doon ba silanakatira ngayon?
"Actually, malakiyung house. Sa may Miranilla. I mean, it's sad kasi he [Norman] was the lastperson I had, of course, the only person I'm ever gonna be spending with mytime there. So, alam mo, kapag nandun ka sa bahay, it's empty. It has thepictures and all that, kayo-kayo lang. Kasi when I lived in the States, it wasonly the three of us. Lahat-lahat napag-aralan ko, natutunan kong gawin, andI'm proud of myself because you don't have to depend on anybody, which is good, diba?
"But then, when you'rethere na at home dito sa Pilipinas at maaalala mo kung sino yung mga nakasamamo doon na last, di ba? I mean, it's very difficult for me na mag-stay ako doonbecause I just got depressed, really. So, I'm glad na I'm spending time with mybrother [Renzo Cruz], yung eldest brother ko, my family. Bumibista ako sa auntko but I don't stay in Miranilla right now because it's too big of a place andit just so has much memories."
May plano ba siyang ibentaang bahay?
"I don't have any plansto sell it kasi right now. Kumbaga, yung akin, lahat ng pagod na ginawa ko forthe past how many years, past three years, alam ko ginawa ko yun nang malinis.Alam ko na ginawa ko yun with the intention na this is for me and not only mebut for my family," sabi ni Sheryl.
Kailan niya biniliang bahay?
"Actually, I justbought it December, kasi Christmas nga ‘yon. That was his [Norman] birthday also. So I though it was gonna be aplace where he would settle. Kasi, di ba, I stayed in the States for eightyears straight?
"I never expected somethingna hindi siya kumportable with. Kasi in the first place, hindi naman ganun angnangyari from the start, e. So siyempre, kung anuman yung reason ng shock ko orng disbelief ko sa turnout ng events ngayon na nangyari sa aming dalawa, parangano lang din ako, yun nga, hindi rin ako makapaniwala.
"Like I said, I cannotbe in denial and I cannot...and my life cannot just stop, di ba? Because I havean important person to live for and that's my daughter Ash."
Sa huli ay nagbigay ng mensahe si Sheryl para kay Norman.
"I just wish himwell and I just want him to be happy. I mean, I cannot wish somebody ill if hehasn't been good to me. Kasi throughoutwhat has happened, I would always want to keep the good memories. The good memorieswill always be with me because he's always gonna be part of my life and he'salways gonna be the father of my daughter," pagtatapos ni Sheryl.