Matapang na hinarap at sinagot ni Snooky Serna sa kanyanglive guesting sa The Buzz kahapon, November 23, ang mga tanong nghost na si Boy Abunda sa segment na "Tough Ten."
Tough Ten Question No. 10: Bakit mo nasabi dati napinagsisisihan mo na naging star ka at an early age? Matatandaang nagsimula si Snooky bilang child star noong '70s.
"Siguro, Tito Boy, I didn't get to enjoy my childhood asmuch as I would have wanted to."
Did you blame anybody for that?
"I used to, but not anymore. Tapos na yun."
Tough Ten Question No. 9: Sa tuwing makikita mo ang mgakasabayan mo na sina Maricel Soriano at Dina Bonnevie, sa puso mo ba, mayinggit ka bang nararamdaman? Magkakasabay silang inilunsad ng Regal Films sa pelikulang Underage.
"Honestly, Tito Boy, I don't, wala," sabi ni Snooky. "Kasi may kanya-kanyanaman kaming ambisyon. Siguro sasabihin ng iba na ako raw tamad. But then,hindi, e. Kasi para sa akin, happiness is subjective, di ba? I think it's myproblem, not theirs."
Tough Ten Question No. 8: Sa lahat ng aktor na na-link saiyo in the past, sino ang hindi mo makakalimutan at bakit?
Matagal bago nakasagot si Snooky at tinanong pa niya kungpuwede ba siyang mag-skip ng question. Nang sabihin ni Boy na hindi puwede atsaka lang siya sumagot.
Aniya, "Ako, I have been known to be an honest person. I willnot ever forget Albert Martinez."
"Kasi, unang-una, on a positive light, he was my first love,first boyfriend, and a... siguro let's leave it at that na lang. I want to bemagnanimous."
Tough Ten Question No. 7: Sa lahat ng trials na pinagdaananmo sa iyong buhay, ano ang pinakamabigat kung saan muntik ka nang bumigay?
"Siguro yung time na... Ngayon lang, just recently, yungnagkasakit si Mommy. That was very tough for me. Muntik na talaga akongbumigay. Feeling ko, magkakaroon na ako ng psychotic breakdown. Kasi my momkasi, if I may kuwento a bit, nahulog siya sa bathroom. She suffered parang...Wala naman siyang fracture or anything like that, parang namaga yung likod niyang konti.
"It was so painful that she has to be given steroids kasinahihirapan siyang huminga. Because of that, nag-overdosage ang mga...the doctorsobviously, nagkaroon siya ng... I know she will not mind if I say this...nagkaroonsiya ng psychotic breakdown. And seeing your mom in such a breakdown, talagangang parang feeling ko, I'm going to lose her. Because, Tito Boy, it's almost asif hindi na niya ako kilala. She was having delusions na. And then they wantednga to make a procedure to make sure na hindi siya magkaroon ng heart attackulit. Kasi nagkaroon siya ng mild heart attack noon, e.
"Whatever it is na nangyari sa amin ng mommy ko, kumbaga,parang touch and go. Yun ang parang tsamba-tsamabahan, e. Minsan, you like eachother. Sometimes, we don't like each other that much. But the bottom line isshe's my mother and I love her. And I will never change her for any mom in theworld kahit na ano pang sabihin nila."
Tough Ten Question No. 6: Talking about what your mom wentthrough, was there a time na you really went through chronic depression andnaging drug dependent?
"Yes, Tito Boy," pag-amin ni Snooky. "Noon pa lang nagsimulana ito, e. Because of the pressure nung time na talagang ka-busy-han ko noon.Parang I was so pressured to look beautiful, to look perfect. Kailangan payatka kundi hindi ka gagawan ng pelikula. May anorexia [eating disorder] na ako noon, na I almostdon't eat at all. Yun ang naging sakit ko just to please the people.
"I did not want to lose my job. I did not want to lose thecomfort of life that I have been experiencing at the moment. So, to make thelong story short, nagkaroon ako ng systemic mood disorder, they call it. Offshoot ng anorexia yun. Nagkaroon ako ng chemical imbalance. So, nagte-take akong mga gamot na, to be honest, up to now, I'm still dependent on them."
Pero are those prescribed by the doctor? Supervised talagasiya?
"Yes, prescribed and supervised by the doctor. So, hindi itodrug addiction."
Tough Ten Question No. 5: After two failed marriages, maymga pagkakataon ba na sinisisi mo ang sarili mo na parang ako ba ang may problema?
"Oh yes, a lot of times," sagot ng aktres. "Kasi parang feeling ko, having hadtwo failed marriages na nga, parang you can't help it but question yourselfthen, e. Ang problema ko lang siguro is grabe akong magmahal that I forgetabout loving my self."
Tough Ten Question No. 4: In one of your intervies sa TheBuzz, there was a point na sinabi mo na you're looking forward to reconcilewith Ricardo Cepeda (Snooky's first husband). Noong nalaman mo na mayroon na siyang bagong girlfriendngayon, ano ang iyong reaksyon?
"Ang reaksyon ko siyempre... Kahit sabihin pang nagkaroon akong second husband, which I thought was going to last forever and unfortunatelydid not end up that way, masakit pa rin siyempre yung realization na, you know,this man who I lived with and is the father of my two children, he is myhusband and I was loyal to him for 13 years, now has replaced me na. Parangganun."
Isang tanong lang, do you still love him? It's answerable byyes or no.
"It depends on what kind of love."
Tough Ten Question No. 3: Kapag binalikan mo ang iyongnakaraan, ano sa tingin mo ang naging pagkukulang mo bilang isang ina to yourchildren?
"Tito Boy, ayokong maging mayabang. But I don't thinknagkaroon ako ng pagkukulang sa kanila. Wala," saad ni Snooky.
Tough Ten Question No. 2: You mentioned kanina na medyorocky yung relasyon n'yo ng iyong ina. Pero at what point mo pinatawad angiyong ina? And what point mo pinatawad ang iyong sarili in your own context?
"Noong time na nagkasakit siya and I thought na my mom willbe a goner. Akala ko talaga na she will really go."
Did you say I'm sorry and I love you mom?
"Yes, I did. It was that time na I keep on telling her thatI love her. And thankfully nung mag-wear out na yung gamot, na-flush out na sasystem niya and she was back to her usual self, na-express namin sa isa't isa.Nagkaroon na kami ng closure. ‘Okay, hindi tayo parehong perfect. Parehongmalakas ang personality natin. But the bottomline is we love each other. And wecannot live without each other.'"
Tough Ten Question No. 1: According to reports, nakahiga karaw sa salapi. Totoo bang sustentado ka ngayon ng isang napakayamangbusinessman?
"He is, thankfully, a self-made man. He is well-off. Butmore than anything else, he takes care of my spirit. He calms me down. He nurturesme in more ways than one. Money is much more secondary."
Yes or no, do you love him?
"I am in love with him."
Does he love you?
"I think he does."