TRIGGER-WARNING: SUICIDE ATTEMPT
Sa wakas ay binasag na ng singer-songwriter na si Zack Tabudlo ang kanyang katahimikan ukol sa matagal nang isyung nag-uugnay sa kanya sa kapwa singer-songwriter na si Moira dela Torre.
Si Zack ang singer sa likod ng OPM hit songs na "Binibini," “Nangangamba,” “Habang Buhay,” at “Pano.”
Nagsimula ang kanyang karera sa pag-awit nang maging contestant siya sa unang season ng ABS-CBN singing competition na The Voice Kids noong 2014.
Naging bahagi siya ng team ni Bamboo Mañalac.
Kabilang sa ka-batch niya ang grand winner na si Lyca Gairanod at ang finalists na sina Darren Espanto at JK Labajo.
Read: Zack Tabudlo overjoyed at BTS's Jungkook playing his song: "I can die now with peace."
Nadawit ang pangalan ni Zack nang lumabas ang balitang naghiwalay na si Moira at ang husband nitong si Jason Hernandez. Pinalalabas na may namamagitan sa kanila ni Moira.
Sa kabila nito, piniling manahimik ni Zack.
Muling naungkat ang diumano'y ugnayan nina Zack at Moira dahil sa tila pa-blind item ng songwriter na si Lolito Go na si Moira umano ang unang nakahanap ng "pamalit" bago pa sila maghiwalay ni Jason.
Bahagi ng Facebook post ni Lolito noong Linggo, May 28, 2023: "And even before Jason confessed to his sin, Moira already wanted out.
"Dahil nakahanap na rin sya ng pamalit. Someone who will 'dance in the rain' with her and call her 'binibini'. I'll leave it to you to guess sino ang tinutukoy ko.”
Read: Songwriter Lolito Go posts string of grievances vs Moira dela Torre; defends Jason Hernandez
HOW THEIR FRIENDSHIP STARTED
Ngayong Miyerkules ng gabi ng May 31, 2023, sa kauna-unahang pagkakataon ay ibinahagi ni Zack ang kanyang panig sa pag-uugnay sa kanila ni Moira.
Una muna niyang ipinaliwanag paano niya nakilala sina Moira, Jason, at ang team nito.
"i have been quiet for a year, and never said a thing about anyone nor said a word about all of whats going on around the internet around my friends and about me.
"but its time for me to tell my side of the story. i met moira, jason, and her team, through a collaboration for a song called “iba” back in january of 2022 via zoom.
"we’ve recorded everything online and had video calls with both moira and jason with praises of how i finished the track just a few days after (sending them the master)."
Noong March 2022 lamang daw niya nakilala nang personal si Moira at ilang kaibigan nito.
Noong panahong iyon, wala raw si Jason dahil nasa Abu Dhabi ito at gumagawa ng mga kanta.
Pinaghahandaan naman noon ni Zack ang kanyang tour, kung saan guest si Moira kaya palagi silang magkasama sa rehearsals at guestings.
Ito rin daw ang paliwanag sa mga naglabasang mga larawan nila ni Moira.
Lahad niya: "fast forward to march 23 of 2022, i met moira, some of her friends, and her team in person through rehearsals of a tour i was doing. Jason wasn’t present at the time, he was in abu dhabi making music and i was looking forward to meeting both of them but it didn’t happen there.
"moira was a guest in my tour and did a few shows with me which explains the rehearsals and photos speculating online.
"we did guestings and promos on social media, which are posts of lyrics from our song. we also took photos together, and basically letting everyone know we had a song together.
"during this time as well we had a guesting on a mobile radio bus, and at this time i’ve already created a friendship with her, her friends, and team.
"at this time as well, her team and group of friends would sleep over and make music together in their house, which i later then became a part of.
"we all made music together, spent a lot of amazing time, and most importantly built such an amazing relationship with the circle."
"I WAS A WEIRD KID..."
Inamin ni Zack na wala siya masyado sa huwisyo noon dahil sa tuluy-tuloy na trabaho.
Dagdag pa raw rito ang pressure sa paggawa ng mga kanta "being one of the top artists."
Sa kabila ng pagiging "weird kid" niya, na dahilan ng pag-bully sa kanya, pinaniwala raw siya ni Moira at ng mga kaibigan nito na may mga nagmamahal sa kanya.
Saad ni Zack, "I that time was not in my most stable mental state. work was non stop, the pressure of making music and being one of the top artists, and having to show up everyday for the fans and people who support me through my music.
"i do not have the biggest background when it comes to friends, i was a weird kid making music showing it off to my whole school when i was younger, and telling everyone it was my biggest dream.
"but no one gave a shit about me and i was bullied for being this way. but moira and her group of friends made me believe that i am loved, and i am someone who was worth to have real people beside me."
Dahil daw sa palagian nilang pagkikita dahil sa trabaho, naging pamilya na raw niya si Moira at ang mga kaibigan nito.
Sa huling bahagi ng kanilang pagsasama ay roon niya nakilala si Jason, na umuwi na mula sa abroad.
Sa huling gabi ay pinasalamatan niya ang grupo ni Moira dahil sa mga moment na nagkasama sila.
Sabi niya (published as is): "that circle and especially moira, became my family. i would breakdown to them almost everynight during those times because i found that safety and that protection from them.
"fast forward to the last days of our stay, jason came home from abu dhabi and i finally met him. our group went out for dinner and went home after.
"the same night which was also my last night, i got to thank all of them for having me and cried once again telling them that i will forever cherish these moments with them."
THE MOIRA-JASON BREAKUP
Pagkalipas ng isang linggo, tinawagan daw sila isa-isa ni Jason para sabihing bigyan muna sila ng space ni Moira.
Nang nalaman nila ang hiwalayan nina Moira at Jason, nag-aya raw si Moira sa grupo para sa isang dinner dahil kailangan nito ng kasama at suporta.
Ang kabuuan ng kuwento ni Zack: "fast forward to about a week after, we were all called up by jason individually to give him and moira space.
"when we found out about the split and the reason of it, moira reached out to the group and invited everyone for dinner.
"she needed company and support during those heavy times. we were all in shock of what happened."
At bilang kaibigan, ibinigay raw nila ang lahat ng pagmamahal at atensiyon kay Moira.
Dagdag pa ni Zack, "we were all then leaning into protecting her and giving all of the love she needed. during the months that past, we were all just present for her.
"our group of friends would go out for dinner, we would all take her out individually as well, we watch movies, and we would do anything to make her happy and give her company, but it was also months of breaking down, traumas, trust issues, and moira was just not well."
Incidentally, May 31, 2022, inanunsiyo nina Jason at Moira ang kanilang hiwalayan, o isang taon eksakto ngayong araw.
Read: Jason Hernandez announces split with wife Moira dela Torre: “I have been unfaithful to her.”
"MORE UNFORTUNATE THINGS"
Dahil sa ipinakita niyang pagsuporta sa naghihinagpis na si Moira, iba raw ang naging dating nito sa tao.
Sa sariling salita ni Zack: "and more unfortunate things came with it. because of these actions and support towards her, we were accused of so much things. especially me.
"i was there for a friend who needed my help and i wanted to give that protection and support that she gave me when i needed it. but thats not what everyone saw and what everyone knew."
Nanahimik daw siya sa isyu, hanggang sa hindi na niya kinaya at tinangka niyang kitilin ang sariling buhay.
Pero mabait daw ang Diyos at binigyan pa siya ng pangalawang pagkakataon.
"i kept quiet but it all became too heavy for me. the pressure, the accusations, the music, my mental state, and everything just crumbled down for me. and i gave up.
"i couldn’t take it and i committed suicide. but thank God he gave me another chance. i was in the hospital in a comma unresponsive, and everyone thought i didn’t make it.
"after hours of them waiting, i woke up in the ER and i was in therapy in the ward for a good amount of time."
"I ADORE HER WITH ALL MY HEART"
Noong nakalabas na siya ng ospital, isa ang grupo nila ni Moira sa nag-welcome sa kanya.
Paglalahad ni Zack: "when i got out i was greeted by our circle and my family.
"my family and friends went straight to a tattoo shop, got semi colon tattoos with me including moi, and she told us to get bird tattoos as well for me to fly high and never look down forever."
Hindi madali para kay Zack na isiwalat ang bagay na ito, ngunit panahon na raw para ibahagi ang kanyang panig pagkatapos niyang sarilinin ito sa loob ng isang taon.
Sa kanyang post, sabi nito: "this is not an easy topic to open up. and i have been keeping this to myself for a whole year but i thought it was time.
"i wanted to share this to everyone who supported me all through out this music thing ever since i was young, and how much people i can help and inspire who are going through the same thing."
Payo pa niya, "and to those who are also in the verge of giving up. this is not the end for you. God has so much in store for you and your story will not end there.
"like my parents always say, problems will always pass and there’s always a solution for everything."
Nagbigay-pugay rin si Zack kay Moira.
Saad niya, "with moira, she has been the strongest mf i have met my whole life. and i look up to her so much.
"she’s selfless, strong, caring, and so loving to the people around her. and i adore her with all my heart.
"she was one of the people who were there for me during my healing stages in the ward and i will never ever forget how much she’s helped me grow and move pass this phase of mine despite of all the things she went through."
Nagpasalamat din si Zack sa kanyang pamilya, malalapit na kaibigan, at fans sa suporta ng mga ito sa kanya.
Nilakipan niya ang kanyang post ng kanyang larawan sa ospital noong naka-recover na siya.
"to my family, my closest friends, and the fans. thank you all so much for the never ending love and support. i am in a better mental state now and i am so excited to give everyone more music that i have ready. i love you guys always and forever."
Kalakip ng post ni Zack ay ang larawan niya nang dalhin siya sa emergency room.
Sabi pa niya sa huling bahagi ng kanyang post: "As for me, I will stay put where I am and wait not for the perfect moment, but the right time.
"Mga Marites na hatdog kayo."
Samantala, sa official statement ni Moira, mariing pinabulaanan ng singer/composer ang akusasyong nagloko siya noong panahong nagsasama pa sila ni Jason.
Read: Moira dela Torre denies ghostwriting, cheating allegations
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