Inamin ni Angelu de Leon na hanggang ngayon ay hindi pa niya napapanood ang huling episode ng kanyang TV series noon na Growing Up.
Sa PEPtalk shoot na ginanap kahapon, July 9, sa GMA Executive Lounge, sinabi ni Angelu na hindi niya pa kayang panoorin sa ngayon ang huling kabanata ng show dahil naging mabigat sa loob niya ang pag-iwan sa programa.
Matatandaang noong 1998, habang ginagawa niya ang toprating primetime program na Growing Up, na siyang continuation ng phenomenal weekend teen-oriented show nilang TGIS: Thank God It’s Sabado, ay kinakailangang lumisan ni Angelu nang mabuntis siya ng action star na si Joko Diaz.
Kasagsagan noon ng kasikatan ni Angelu at ng kanyang ka-loveteam na si Bobby Andrews, at 19 years old lamang noon ang aktres.
Tinanong namin si Angelu kung ano ang naramdaman niya noon sa pag-alis sa kanilang programa.
Saad niya, “Okay, this is the trivia... do you know that until today, I haven’t seen the last episode of Growing Up?
“I couldn’t get myself to watching it... Hay, ayoko umiyak!
“Basta, yun lang, hindi ko pa siya napapanood, even if merong mga fans na lumapit na sa ‘kin na, ‘Uy, meron akong ganito, ganyan-ganyan.’
"Hindi ko kaya."
Ano ang kanyang dahilan?
“Siguro yun yung hurt ko, in a sense na, not just because of what I did, but it’s because of what I did to people part of Growing Up.
“Parang I didn’t have the courage before to apologize to them.
"I didn’t have the courage to… parang that time kasi, when I left, it was all just full of pride.
“Parang ganun, parang umalis ako dahil, ‘Kaya ko to, paninindigan ko ‘to, paninidigan ko yung ginawa ko.’ Ganyan!”
Dagdag ni Angelu, “Siguro, until now, yun yung hindi ko magawa.
"Kasi nakikita ko or dun ko nadadama na, ‘Oh, my gosh, ang dami kong sinaktan na tao.’
“Not just the people around me doing Growing Up, the actors, the staff, the directors, the writers and everyone, but the fans that loved the show.
“But if and when I’m given the chance to…
"I was able to say sorry to Bob, Direk Mark [Reyes, director of TGIS and Growing Up], to the people involved, and siyempre to the fans.
“Pero hindi ko siya mapanood kasi, alam ko, magbi-breakdown ako, because it’s not that I wanted to leave, it’s just that because of the situation I had to leave.
“Parang it’s leaving… it’s leaving something you love so much.
"But as much as you don’t want to leave, you have to."
BOBBY EXPRESSES SUPPORT. Kasama rin ni Angelu sa PEPtalk interview ang longtime onscreen partner niyang si Bobby Andrews.
Magbabalik-tambalan ngayon sina Angelu at Bobby sa afternoon drama ng GMA Network na Buena Familia, na magsisimulang umere sa July 27.
Bago mabuntis si Angelu, ilang pelikula rin ang pinagtambalan nila noon—Laging Naroon Ka, TGIS: The Movie, Wala Na Bang Pag-ibig?, at Ang Lahat Ng Ito’y Para Sa 'Yo.
Nagtambal din sila sa soap opera na Ikaw Na Sana na ginawan din ng movie version.
Noong 2012 ay ibinalik ang mga karakter na ginampanan nila sa TGIS at Growing Up sa youth-oriented show na Teen Gen.
Tinanong namin si Bobby kung ano ang naging reaksiyon niya nang lisanin ni Angelu ang Growing Up noon.
Sagot ng aktor at MTRCB board member, “When she left kasi, I felt that it would be unfair for me to blame her kung masira man yung loveteam o hindi.
“Kasi, I respected the choice she made na she chose what she thought what was right at that time.
"I respected that, e, kasi, like for me, during that time, pag sinabi sa ‘kin ng manager ko na gawin mo ‘to, gagawin ko, di ba?"
Saad pa ni Bobby, “Nakita ko yung strength ng babaeng ito na, ‘Wala kaming pakialam what other people would say, I will do what I think is right, what I think is good for me, and I will follow that.’
“And that’s what she did.”
Pagpapatuloy naman ni Angelu, “Kasi nga, nung part na ‘yon ng Growing Up, na we were doing the episode already, I was pregnant.
“And then, parang dumating yung choice na, ‘Do you wanna continue the pregnancy, or you wanna continue the show?’”
Mas pinili raw ni Angelu na ituloy ang pagbubuntis kesa ipagpatuloy ang stint niya sa show, kahit pa kasagsagan noon ng kanyang karera bilang isang artista.
Pahayag ng 35-year-old actress, “Para naman sa akin, I mean, not for anything, I’m not gonna judge anyone, but I cannot do an abortion.
"So, I had to do that... na parang that thing na I would be bold enough to admit right away that I was pregnant.
“Siyempre, parang lahat sila, ‘Ha? Si Bobby [ang ama]?!’ [Ang sagot ko,] ‘Hindi po.’
“It was really hard, but I think that choice I made was for the good of my soul."
Subalit inamin ni Angelu na sana ay mas maayos niyang na-handle ang naging problema niya noon.
“Pero still, parang at that time, I just handled it differently.
“Siguro if I handled it with more humility and with more compassion towards other people, it would have been a different scenario, parang it would have been maybe easier.
“Pero kasi, I handled it with so much pride.
"Kasi dati, ang uso dati, parang kailangan maging malakas ka, kailangan ipakita mo sa tao na matapang ka.
“Which is nakakalimutan ng tao na, I think, if more than anything, if you’ve committed a mistake, it’s to humble yourself first, then you become stronger.”
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