John Lloyd Cruz feels better now, every time he sees his former girlfriend, Preview fashion editor Liz Uy.
Following his admission about renewing his friendship with Liz, John Lloyd revealed that he felt nervous on the first day he saw her after their breakup.
"Ngayon, mas okay na, hindi na nanginginig ang tuhod ko," John Lloyd said in an interview with PEP (Philippine Entertainment Portal) at the press launch of his newest endorsement, Cherry Mobile, this afternoon, August 24, at the IMAX Theater of SM North EDSA in Quezon City.
He added, "I remember the first time I saw her, the very first time that I saw her. Nanggaling siya ng Europe, ako naman kakabalik ko lang from New York. Nagkita kami sa DPI, nanginginig talaga ang baba ko, 'yong tuhod ko nanginginig! Na-tense, 'yon, excitement! Wala, e, it's beyond any description. 'Yong moment, parang hindi ko maipaliwanag."
The 26-year-old actor said that was probably because he had a deep relationship with Liz. "Malaki, malalim [ang pinagsamahan]... Malaking part ng buhay ko ang na-expose sa kanya. Malaking part ng puso ko nakita niya, na-experience niya," he explained.
But John Lloyd said he feels better now: "Magaan ngayon. Buhay naman ang communication, alam ko kababalik niya lang from Boracay."
KEEPING IT PRIVATE. However, John Lloyd was quick to say that this does not mean he will now openly talk about his renewed friendship with Liz, who was his girlfriend for three years.
The TV host-actor explained, "Hindi naman dahil sa okay na ang lahat, e, I can openly talk about her or kung ano ang ginagawa niya. Kasi siyempre, personal niyang buhay 'yon, e. I mean, kung ako ang nasa lugar niya, parang hindi ko rin naman gusto na kahit wala na siyang kinalaman sa akin, lagi pa rin siyang napag-uusapan. Parang, siyempre, hindi pa rin ako comfortable talking about her openly. Baka kasi hindi niya rin nagugustuhan ang idea or ng family niya, nakakahiya naman."
John Lloyd said he is just happy that they have both accepted what happened in their relationship.
"'Yon ang pinakamaganda or pinakatotoong natutunan ko," he stated. "Siguro at that moment [during the breakup], hindi siguro magaan sa loob or hindi siguro makulay sa experience. Pero ang maganda no'n, promising ang moment na 'yon. Alam mong maraming mas magandang bagay na darating kasi tinanggap mo. 'Yon naman ang una, e—acceptance. Paganda na nang paganda, pagaan na nang pagaan."
The actor wants to keep his friendship with Liz. He does not want to think about bringing back their romantic relationship.
"Hindi ko pa siya matutukoy, hindi ko pa siya masasabi. Ewan ko, hindi ko masasabi 'yon. Now, we're good friends, in touch kami. 'Yon lang ang meron kami, at 'yon lang ang masasabi ko for now."