Just when she thought suicide is the easy way out to her troubles, Ryza Cenon found a new purpose through her paintings.
The Kapuso actress said that she was practically jobless for a year when she took up painting with the help of one of her avid fans.
“Pinatawag ko yung isa kong fan na turuan niya ako kasi sobrang galing niya sa watercolor.
“Pumunta siya sa bahay once.
“Ang subject namin, apple. Yung apple niya, ang ganda. Yung apple ko local, may uod pa nga!”
After that first and only lesson, Ryza pursued painting on her own.
“Nag-start ako sa watercolor and then nag-pastel din ako 'tapos nag-oil hanggang sa nag-acrylic na ako.”
Painting saved her from depression and, in a way, her financial woes.
“Kapag wala akong work, dun ako natututo how to budget my money.
“Minsan nagba-bazaar ako kasi I know how to cook. I know how to bake.
“So yung iba kong talent, nilalabas ko talaga nang bonggang-bongga para lang maka-survive.
“Tapos in fairness naman last year, nung wala akong work, nakabenta ako ng six or seven paintings.
“So okay na rin.”
PEP.ph (Philippine Entertainment Portal) caught up with Ryza at her first art exhibit, Indepencia: Ang Panimula, held in Guevarra’s by Chef Laudico last Thursday, June 9.
With the help of the restaurant's owners and GMA Corporate Communications, Ryza hopes to draw more people into seeing her paintings in the said restaurant.
Asked to describe the common theme of her artworks, Ryza said she likes to paint abstract forms in dark colors.
She admitted that painting became an outlet to release her negative thoughts.
“Hindi ako mapakali once na nakikita ko na yung painting ko, malinis.
“Gusto ko magulo. Kaya more on abstract ako.”
Here's to enumerate Ryza’s inspirations behind her paintings.
1. Faith in God
Despite her suicidal tendencies, Ryza shared that she remains to be a God-fearing person.
In fact, one of her favorite artworks was a black and red abstract painting that showed the face of Jesus Christ.
“Hindi ko po sinasadya na mabuo siya.
“Ang inspiration ko habang ginagawa ‘yan, mga sundalo po sa Mindanao.
“Yung mga nagtatago, mga takot lumaban, or napilitan lumaban—sila yung inspiration dun.
“Kaya siya madilim kasi nagtatago sila. Pero nung lumabas po is mukha ni God.”
2. A mother’s love
The painting on the left was inspired by her co-actress Chariz Solomon, who had been breastfeeding her newborn son when they were taping Kailan Ba Tama Ang Mali last year.
"Yung nasa right side about mother and child. May times na nami-miss ko yung mommy ko," Ryza added.
Ryza's mom passed away when she was only two years old.
3. Painful breakup
PEP asked: Is she more inspired to paint when she's heartbroken?
Ryza replied, "Yes. Kapag sobrang broken ako, hindi lang sa love life as in sa lahat.
"Mas marami ako napi-paint kaya lang dark kasi mas nalalabas ko yung negative energy ko."
One of Ryza's paintings titled "Tears of Blood" was created at a low point in her life.
"Yun ang time na nagpi-paint ako habang umiiyak ako.
"Feeling ko, kulang na lang dugo [ang iluha ko.]"
5. Unexplained emotions
Ryza further shared that most of her paintings have accidental symbols of sorts.
"Lahat ng pini-paint ko [na symbols] hindi siya sinasadya. Makikita mo na lang siya. May mga meaning talaga."