Former actress Queenie Padilla is no stranger to social media's dark side.
Like her younger sister Kylie Padilla and stepmom Mariel Padilla, who talked about weight issues during and after pregnancy, she recently revealed how motherhood helped her be comfortable with her own body.
Queenie, whose daughter Mustahsina Mikailah turned one year old on July 25, opened up about the struggles she's had with her shape and figure.
During my pregnancy it was scary hearing people say that your body will change. Being exposed to the life of celebrity and the superficial standards of “beauty” showbiz embedded in my brain destroyed me as a teenager. I wasn’t born with a body of a Victoria’s Secret model. I was born with a curvy body which meant that I had to work much harder because I would look bigger on camera. I was so insecure and delusional that I would buy clothes a size down, thinking that it would motivate me to lose the weight. I was ashamed buying a size 10 or 12. It was hard to find pants and dresses that fit me, because of my wide hips and curves. I’ve had skin problems, If I didn’t have an asthma attack, I would get rashes all over my body. So I was constantly having peeling treatments to make the marks go away. When I would hear brutal comments about my weight, teeth and my skin I used to think to myself. Is it my fault that I was born with this body? Is it my fault that my skin is so sensitive? If I could have something to say to my tell my teenage self; it would be, “Stop stressing about these things, take it easy. You are beautiful, you are talented, you are intelligent, you are intellectual and you should stop absorbing negativity. Focus on what you have been blessed with. Nobody’s perfect. Everyone has their strengths and weakness. Embrace them. You are you. Think about the good things you can do to make an impact in the world. Be productive. Make your dreams come true. It’s okay to be a size 10-12, you don’t need to be a size 8 to be beautiful. You can achieve a healthy body weight by eating right and exercising. You can have flawless skin and straight teeth. All the more now with the revolutionary modern dental, skin treatments available out there. There is always a solution to every problem.” At 27 as a new mother, I’ve become more confident in my own skin. It’s amazing what motherhood can do. To all the teenagers including my daughter some day, be confident in who you are. Embrace your flaws and more importantly just as much as you want to beautify your physical self, don’t forget about beautifying your inner self. #thepainmakesyoustronger #olderandwiser
"During my pregnancy, it was scary hearing people say that your body will change," Queenie wrote.
It didn't help that she was exposed to the "life of celebrity and the superficial standards of 'beauty'" when she was still in show business, which she said "destroyed" her as a teenager.
She recalled how she almost blamed herself for not having the body of a Victoria’s Secret model.
"I was born with a curvy body which meant that I had to work much harder because I would look bigger on camera," Queenie said.
It also meant having a hard time finding clothes. She'd often buy clothes one size smaller than her actual size as her motivation to lose weight.
That, and also because she was ashamed to buy a size 10 or 12.
On top of this, Queenie said she also had skin problems which she temporarily solved with frequent peeling treatments.
At one point in her Instagram post, the first-time mom shared a message she'd like to say now to her teenage self, one that any woman should read and be reminded of from time to time.
Queenie wrote: "You are beautiful, you are talented, you are intelligent, you are intellectual, and you should stop absorbing negativity.
"Focus on what you have been blessed with.
"Everyone has their strengths and weakness.
"Embrace them. You are you.
"Think about the good things you can do to make an impact in the world. Be productive.
"At 27 as a new mother, I’ve become more confident in my own skin.
"It’s amazing what motherhood can do."
Queenie hopes that all teenagers, including her daughter, would be confident regardless of their body size and shape.
"Embrace your flaws and more importantly, just as much as you want to beautify your physical self, don’t forget about beautifying your inner self," she continued.
Motherhood has also given Queenie the confidence to grab the opportunity to achieve her dream.
After five long years of doubting herself, she finally launched her own clothing line, which would be celebrating its second anniversary in a few months.
Queenie sells hijabs, midi tops, dresses, and kimonos, which she models for in her online website, under her brand and initials, QP.
"I've always been passionate about picking out material and looking at different types of stitching while I shopped for clothes," she wrote in another Instagram post.
The website also offers UM (her husband Usman Mir's initials) shirts and hoodies for men.
Queenie recalled how hard it was for her to quit a well-paying career in showbiz and give up a comfortable life with her action star dad Robin for the sake of love and marriage.
Thus, even with her husband taking care of her and their family, she chose to pursue a business, too.
She had ideas for a clothing line business a few years ago after realizing that there aren't a lot of options for modest clothing available for Muslim women in the Philippines.
"I didn't expect the overwhelming amount of trust and support you guys gave me. Thank you so much," Queenie wrote.
"We reached our two-year milestone in just a few months. I really felt the magic that we have as an ummah (community) if we support one anotherr.
"All praise is due to Allah!"
This story originally appeared on SmartParenting.com.ph.
* Minor edits have been made by the PEP.ph editors.