"I think it's too late"
Those were the words expressed by a teary-eyed but stoic Jennylyn Mercado when Butch Francisco of StarTalkasked her if ever Patrick Garcia, Jennylyn's boyfriend, asks for a second chance.Trying to cope with everything is now the main focus of Jennylyn as she facesthe trials of pregnancy and of a relationship hanging by a thin thread.
"Ako, mas nagiging mature and yung pananaw ko talaga dapatwide na," said Jennylyn.
Butch then asked about what Jennylyn felt after she watchedPatrick's interview in The Buzz lastSunday. Patrick's name brought a sad expression on Jennylyn's face, but she answered almost automatically.
"Siyempre nalungkot ako," Jennylyn confessed. "'Tsakanangibabaw yung gulat kasi akala ko tapos na. Yung unang reaction kasi nungnapanood ko yung interview kasi was ‘Huh? Hindi pa rin sigurado kung sa 'yo ito?'Kasi 'pag sigurado ka, puwede mong sabihin na, ‘Sa akin ‘to! Tapos!' KasiValentine's, Tito Butch, nakapag-usap naman kami [Patrick]. Bakit hindi naminna-tackle yung mga personal plans sa buhay? Lumabas na lang ako, at sabi niya,‘Tapos na, wala nang interviews.' ‘Of course,' sabi ko. ‘Basta ako, tapos na.'"
"Nung nag-usap tayo, this was the third week of January,"Butch followed up. "Pagkatapos, di ba, meron pa tayong sit [interview] noon withyou and Patrick. Ano ang nangyari after that? Nagkita pa ba kayo ulit?"
"Nagkita kami nung mismong concert [February 2]," relatedJennylyn. "Then after the concert, yun na."
"Still, komu-contact ka at hindi sumasagot?" Butch asked.
"Trying to reach him," Jennylyn admitted. "Wala. Tumatawagako at nagte-text ako, tapos wala... Mas lalo lang nakakasama ng loob 'pag hindi kapinapansin. Tigil na lang. Kung ayaw, e, huwag na lang."
How was Jen's Valentine's?
"Actually nung Valentine's, nawawalan na ako ng pag-asa," the young actress admitted. "Para kaming lahat sa bahay, e, ‘Hay wala tayong date.'Siyempre, nalungkot kami na parang ‘Hay naku, dito lang tayo sa bahay. Labas nalang tayo.' After lunch yata tumawag siya [Patrick] at nag-invite manood ngsine o kumain sa labas. In-accept ko naman yung invitation."
"Hindi ka ba nagtampo, tipong ‘Bakit ngayon ka langtumawag?'" Butch jokingly asked.
Jennylyn laughed, "Parang walang nangyari."
Knowing that humor might help Jen relax, Butch smiled, andthen asked, "Pero natuwa ka?"
"Siyempre naman po!" Jennylyn exclaimed. "Natuwa ako kasihindi naman niya po ako kinalimutan. Nagkita kami doon sa Greenhills, saPromenade. Dinner, ganoon."
"Ano ang pick-up ninyo nung dinner?" Butch inquired.
"Napag-usapan lang namin na stop na muna mga interview, mgashowbiz things, ganyan," Jennylyn answered. "Nag-agree siya at nag-agree na dinako. Sabi ko, ‘Ayoko na din magsalita, dahil marami na rin ang nasaktan. Maramina rin issues ang naglalabasan. Ayoko na rin magsalita.' After naming mag-usap, e, Sunday nakita ko yung interview [sa The Buzz]."
"Napag-usapan n'yo ang ceasefire sa mga interviews ninyo,"Butch immediately followed, "pero napag-usapan n'yo ba ang tungkol sa inyo?"
"Hindi po," was all Jennylyn could muster to say.
"Nobody bothered to bring that up? Parabang, ‘Ano na bang lagay natin dalawa ngayon?'" Butch offered. Getting a silenceon Jen's part, he quickly asked, "Were you expecting?"
"No," Jennylyn said, "Kasi sanakung mag-e-expect ako, e, sananoon pa, e, ginawa na niya yun. Ang dami ko kasing ine-expect kasi, e, naparang sana,i-text ako nun, tawagan ako nun, o i-approach ako nun para kausapin. Pero lagi-lagi akong nate-turn down. Parang ayoko na lang."
"In other words, in your heart of hearts, ang alam motalaga, e, tapos na kayo?" Butch asked.
"Hanging," she replied. "Hindi mo alam kung kayo pa ba, or hinihintay niyana lang ba na sabihin ko na ayaw ko na, kasi ayaw niya na sa kanya manggagaling... Ang dami-daming naglalaro sa isip ko. Hindi ko talaga alam, wala akong idea.Parang, ‘Ano ba talaga gusto nito? Anong purpose niya, bakit hindi niya akokinakausap? Bakit hindi niya ako tinatawagan, o bakit hindi niya ako tine-text,o hindi ako dinadalaw.' Parang ang gulo."
On her end, why couldn't she decide?
"Nakapag-decide na rin ako," Jennylyn revealed, "My decisionis to move on, with or without Patrick. Sinabi ko na rin sa kanya noon, sana na-receive niya. Nag-text ako sa kanya, last Sunday [After Patrick's interview]."
THE MARK HERRASCONNECTION. There have been rumors surrounding Jen's pregnancy about MarkHerras being the real father of the child. One rumor suggested that Jen and Markwere seen together in the President's Tower last December 6, 2007.
An exasperated Jennylyn answered, "Meron akong narinig,December 10. Meron naman akong narinig, December 11, December 6. Parang sa datepa lang, inconsistent na, e. Parang, ‘Huh, sino ba source n'yo?' Hindi namantama, na nakita ba talaga ako, or ako ba talaga yung kasama ni Mark? Baka namanhindi ako, kamukha ko lang?"
Then to prove her point, Jen told where she actuallywas during those days.
"December 4, nasa Japan ako noon. May show ako nun," she said.
In Mark's defense, Jennylyn pleaded, "Kawawa naman yung tao,walang kamalay-malay na parang... Three years na kami hiwalay ni Mark, taposnadadamay siya. Out of nowhere biglang susulpot, idadamay. Kawawa naman yungtao, unfair naman din sa kanya. Lalo na sa akin."
Mark on his part, showed sympathy to his ex and fellowStarStruck winner.
"Nakakaawa siya, kasi gusto kong tumulong at napasama payung tulong ko. Hindi ko alam kung bakit naging ganoon. Ang isipin na lang niJen ay yung baby niya," Mark said.
GARCIAFAMILY. Jennylyn has always been on the good side of Patrick's family. Butbecause of the current tense situation, and the recent interviews, therelationship might have turned sour.
"Si Tita Beng [Patrick's mother] kasi... She's very nice naman to me. Minsankasi hindi ako lumalapit sa kanya para humingi ng tulong [whenever she andPatrick fight], at hindi naman niya alam kung anong mga away namin, the past fewmonths. Naiintindihan ko din ang part niya, she's just protecting her son," Jennylyn explained.
On the term ‘protecting her son,' a dismayed Jennylyn added, "Sobrang na hurt ako, kasi akala ko nung una, e, si Pat lang anghindi naniniwala, pati pala yung mom niya. Para sa akin, e, bigyan n'yo namanako ng dignity."
Butch asked: "Bakit nila ginagawa yun, ang pagku-question? Is it tinatakasan ang responsibilidad?"
"Hindi ko alam, e," Jennylyn admitted. "Kasi hindi namanpuwede gawing reason yung ako ang unang naglabas ng ganito, ganyan. Until maylumabas na issue from their side, e, saka na ulit ako nagsalita. 'Tapos, hindirin puwede gawing reason ang lumalabas na issue about sa amin ni Mark, aboutkung sino ang totoong tatay, kung bakit ginagamit ko ang show business parasabihin kung ano mga problema and everything."
EDUCATION AND INSURANCE PLAN. The generous offer of Patrick's mother of educationand insurance plan for the baby after her son's appearance on The Buzz might've led to Jennylynthinking. She, however, expressed her deepest thanks.
"I want to say ‘thank you' to Tita Beng," Jennylyn respectfullysaid. "Kasi nagbigay siya ng educational plan para sa baby. But, parang, kunghindi sila sigurado kung kay Patrick ito, e, bakit kayo magbibigay?"
About this education and insurance plan, did a meetingtake place between the two camps?
Jennylyn answered, "Yes, Tita Beng texted me na ‘ASAP, youhave to sign this, ASAP.'"
Jennylyn also revealed that her manager Becky Aguila was theone who went to Patrick's mom for the said plans, since Jennylyn herself can't face Mrs. Garcia during those times. Aside from that, Jennylyn also expressed herdecision that she really didn't need it.
"Hindi ko pa naman kailangan," explained Jennylyn. "Kasi threemonths pa lang ako at hindi pa naman natin alam kung ano mangyayari, and parangout of nowhere, e, bigla na lang sumulpot ang edicational plan. Parang howstrange, nagsasabi sila ng negative about me 'tapos biglang meron ganito."
Did the move mean that Patrick didn'tleave her with nothing? What's Jennylyn's take on this?
"Hindi ko tinanggap," was all Jennylyn could say.
"Ang hirap naman na pipirmahan ko yun na hindi kami okay.Inisip ko din na bakit kailangan madaliin? Hindi ko naman kailangan ng tulong, e.Kumbaga, hindi ko naman kailangan ng financial support nila or anything. Angkailangan ko is Patrick, who will take care of me, love me, and support me."
At this point, is she still expecting Patrick to bearresponsibility for the baby?
"Ngayon, hindi na po," Jennylyn bluntly said.
"I STILL LOVEPATRICK." When asked whether she still loves Patrick or does she lovePatrick because of the baby, this was Jennylyn's judgment: "Kailangan ko siya dahil mahal ko siya. Kailangan din siya ngbaby ko. Kailangan din niya magkaroon ng family. Ayoko naman yung nangyari sakanya yung nangyari sa akin na broken family, ganoon. Gusto ko naman na magingmasaya."
Her message to the Garcia family?
"Sorry sa lahat ng mga nangyari, lahat ng mga gulo. Hindi kointention na guluhin kayo. And, thank you sa lahat ng support ninyo, lalo na siCheks [Cheska Garcia, Patrick's sister]. Mahal ko po kayo."
CHESKA REACTS. Ina separate interview with Cheska, she calmly explained her family's side on someof Jennlyn's statements. First was about Jennylyn not being able to contact Patrick.
"Jennylyn said that she can talk to Patrick anytime," Cheska said."And if ever na hindi niya ma-reach si Patrick, I'm the one she calls. Evenwhen they were together, and even before she was pregnant, e, 'pag nag-aawaysila ni Pat, sinusundo pa nila ako kung saan man ako para umupo doon atmag-referee sa kanilang dalawa.
"When Jen called me up to tell me she was pregnant, withouta doubt I did not question if it was his. That was the least thing in my head.I told her, ‘Call up my mom. Huwag kang matakot.' Kasi nanay ‘yan, eh. Alamniya kung ano gagawin," Cheska narrated.
"Kahit mag-backtrack kayo ng mga interviews ni Pat. Hangga'thindi sinasabi ni Pat na ‘That's not my baby,' e, you have no right to say thathe said that. It's just black and white. Either you say, ‘It's not mine,' or‘It's mine.' Patrick has never [said] ‘It's not mine.' He has always said, ‘It's mybaby, it's mine.' Now bahala na ka na on how you want to understand it. Andeven if you backtrack with my interview and my mom's interview, my mom neversaid, ‘It's not his'.
"Sa mga taong nagpilit na sirain silang dalawa ni Patrick,sa mga taong pilit na nilalagyan ng intriga yung relasyon nila, e, sana tumigil na kayo."
On the educationaland insurance plan, Cheska explained: "That was to just to secure that in case anything happens toPatrick, there's something set aside for the baby. This is Patrick'sresponsibility. He'll do his responsibility because this is his child."
Cheska's reassuranceto Jennylyn:"I just hope na you realize na we never doubted the baby.Ako in my heart, eh I never doubted and I know in Patrick's heart that he'snever doubted and I know in my mom's heart that she's never doubted. For me, Iwill set aside what I feel [about the issue] so that maayos lang ito."