“I think this is the best place I’ve ever been. I have the sense of peace, sense of security that no matter what happens, it’s only for the good.”
Ito ang sagot ni Hayden Kho Jr. nang tanungin kung nasaan na siya ngayon.
Ito ay pagkatapos ng lahat ng mga nangyari sa kanya mula nang masangkot siya sa sex video scandal, tanggalan ng lisensiya bilang medical practitioner, magbalik-loob sa Panginoon, at ma-reinstate bilang cosmetic surgeon.
Sa live interview ni Hayden sa The Buzz kahapon, July 19, sinabi nitong kararating lang niya mula sa Oxford, England kaya medyo lutang pa raw siya.
Sa sa isang artikulo ay sinabi ni Hayden na, “I’m not yet where I want to be, but I’m no longer who I used to be.”
Kaya tanong ni Boy Abunda sa kanya: Sino siya noon at sino ang gusto niyang maging?
Sagot ni Hayden, “Thank you for that question. I think that’s the most interesting question na tinatanong sa akin ng mga tao.
“Before, I can say that I am the person who did not know what the meaning of life was.
“I do not know why I’m here, where I came from, where I’m going.
“And the difference now is I’ve found out what the truth is, I pursued that truth.
“And I can feel the transformation in my life that is not my own doing.
“And I aspire to be this ideal person that I want to be, but I see every day… it’s a struggle.”
It’s a journey?
“It’s a journey, but you see the struggle every day.
“You know, you want to do this, but this is what you do.
“You want to do this, but you still do this.
“So, it is a journey, it’s a struggle.
“Dahil tao and also, I think, ayoko rin isipin ng mga tao na just because I found Christ, I’ll be Christ... I mean, I’ll be a perfect person.”
Inaalala pa rin niya ang sasabihin ng mga tao?
Sagot ni Hayden, “It’s not that, e. I just don’t want people to think and then I’ll fail them. I don’t want to lie to myself na ‘eto na ako.”
Pagkatapos ng lahat ng pinagdaanan niya sa buhay, iniisip pa rin niya ang sasabihin ng tao?
“I wish I could say to you that I don’t. But the truth is, only because I now represent somebody who is more important than myself.
“I represent Christ now and people will look, people will examine microscopically my life.
“So, I want to be careful for His reputation, not mine.”
MEDICAL LICENSE. Gumawa ba siya ng magaganda at mabubuting bagay dahil gusto niyang gawin o para maibalik ang medical license niya?
Saad ni Hayden, “Well, the answer to that is no, definitely, I did not do that so I can gain my medical license back.
“In fact, for a while, I am already give up na parang, ‘Will I ever get my license back?’
“Kasi, in 2009, when they told me that I am no longer a doctor… well, you’re still a doctor but you cannot practice as a doctor, it really broke my heart before.
“And I thought, that’s it. So, I’m not really expecting anymore.
“But what did I do, what I did, the answer to that is I wanted to seek the Lord. I wanted to seek Him.
“And, I think, in my experience, when I go to India, to the poorest of the poor, when I helped out, when I experienced the sufferings of other people, I feel God more in my life.
“And the beautiful thing about this, God wants to let His children know who He is.”
Ang desisyon ba ng Professional Regulation Commission (PRC) na ibalik ang lisensiya niya ay final na o kailangan pang maghintay sa motion for reconsideration ng kampo ni Katrina Halili, na siyang nag-file ng reklamo noon upang tanggalan siya ng lisensiya?
Ayon kay Hayden, “Honestly, I don’t know how it works.
“In fact, I haven’t seen the papers. The papers were sent to my parents’ house in Quezon City and I just arrived.
“Ang ginawa lang ng mom ko, ipinadala sa akin ang mga pictures.”
TWO WOMEN. Ano naman ang role ni Dra. Vicki Belo sa spiritual journey niya ngayon?
Si Dra. Belo ang dating girlfriend ni Hayden, ngunit nananatili silang malapit sa isa’t isa.
Sagot ni Hayden, “Vicki is very supportive.
“In fact, she is also following the path of Christ now.
“She’s growing spiritually and I’m very proud of her for that.”
May relasyon pa rin ba sila hanggang ngayon?
“No,” nakangiti niyang pagtanggi.
Ang isa pang importanteng babae sa buhay ni Hayden ay ang kanyang ina na si Irene Kho.
Ano ang gusto niyang sabihin dito?
Sabi ni Hyaden, “I love you, Mommy. Past seven years was very tough for me.
“In fact, maraming beses kaming nag-away ng mom ko.
“Ngayon ko lang talaga naiintindihan ang heart ng isang mom.
“She’s been very, very patient with me.
“Yes, we fought many times but the love is still there.
“And ngayon ko lang naiintindihan yung love.
“Love is not just a mere platter of emotions, it is as much will as well. And if you love a person, you can.
“And my mom, during that time, na sobrang she can just hate me, she loves me.”
WHAT’S NEXT? Masasabi niya bang nasira ng showbiz ang buhay niya?
Sagot ni Hayden, “I used to say this before, but the truth is, it was my pride that destroyed my life, not showbiz.”
Ano na ang mangyayari o plano niya?
“I’m still waiting for the Lord’s instruction.
“I just finished my training in Apologetic and I found answers to many of my questions which I’d like to share to a lot of people.
“I think, part of what I’ll gonna do tomorrow or the next few years is to share my heart with other people and to share with them how I’ve found meaning in my life.”
Kung mayroong mahalagang aral na puwede niyang ibahagi sa mga taong may mahirap na pinagdadaanan ngayon, ano ito?
“During those days, during those times, they even made a poll, and the most hated man in the Philippines is me, Hayden Kho.
“We all longed for love, we do.
“And, doon sa mga tao ngayon na nagkamali before, and everyone abandoned you, I have been through that days.
“And if you need someone to love you, if you need a helping hand, always remember that there’s a Heavenly Father who wants to put His arms around you.
“Who wants to love you and He’ll always be there.”