Isang emosyunal na post ang ibinahagi ni Megastar Sharon Cuneta sa kanyang followers sa Facebook kagabi, August 18.
Sa simula pa lamang nito, inamin ng 48-year-old actress-singer, “I have nothing to lose by telling you that I have made mistakes that have affected all that I have worked for, bled for over the past thirty-six years.”
Para kay Sharon, nabigo niya ang kanyang mga tagahanga dahil naging pabaya siya sa kanyang sarili, lalo na nitong mga nakaraang taon.
Aniya, “I feel that I have let you down. I let myself go, I allowed myself to get fat and stay fat.
"I became complacent... and I never lost faith in God, and in you, but I ignored the fact that I had lost faith in myself."
Kaugnay nito, isa sa mga nakikita ni Sharon na naging dahilan nito ay ang pagkawala ng kanyang interes na lalong magpursige sa career niya.
“I feel that I had lost that ‘hunger’ to be on top of my industry, maybe because I finally had a peaceful home and a loving family and focused on my children so much.
“And so I suffered the consequences of failing to treasure and take care of all that God had blessed me with with regard to my career.
“It IS my fault, my friends. I am only human.”
Inamin din ni Sharon na dumaan siya sa mid-life crisis kung saan naging “rebellious” siya sa kanyang sarili.
Lahad niya, “I hated myself for the way I looked and the time I continued to waste by not focusing and working on bettering my own person.
“And each time I rebelled, often offending other people by being inconsiderate of their time and all else that I used to respect in and about them, I just felt worse and worse about myself.”
At muli, sinabi niya na dahil sa naging pabaya siya sa sarili, “[I] had limited myself to certain movie roles when there was so much more I wanted to do...
"And forgetting that as I was doing all this, time was passing me by.”
Ngayong nakita na niya ang kanyang pagkakamali, sabi ni Sharon, “I will not make any promises to you this time. But this I can say: I am going back to basics.”
ON DEALING WITH BASHERS. Inaasahan ni Sharon na maaaring magamit muli ang post niyang ito para tirahin siya ng bashers.
Pero sabi niya, “At this point, it is not my problem if they cannot distinguish between words spoken from the heart and those spoken for someone’s ’image.’
“I have always been real. I am sure my heart has always been in the right place. I am not perfect.”
Hindi maikakaila na isa si Sharon sa mga artistang madalas tirahin ng bashers sa Internet.
Dahil dito, may ilang pagkakataong pinatulan ni Sharon ang ilang social media users dahil sa kanilang masasamang salita tungkol kanya.
Paliwanag ni Sharon tungkol dito, “I cannot apologize for the person I am. I am transparent.
“I cry when I’m sad, I laugh uncontrollably when I’m happy, I am frank and say what I think when any part of my person or property is violated.
“I was very matiisin for many, many years, and lots of people took advantage of that. So very many. So I learned to stand up for myself.”
Dagdag pa niya, “I am just so tired of having to defend the kind of person I am, when I know that God knows exactly what kind of heart I have.
“It is very painful when you are the target of some and made to feel so badly over someone or something they say you are and that you know you are not.
“But I know I am not without fault. I am the farthest thing from perfect. But God knows I try my best.”
Sa ngayon, sabi ni Sharon, “I have no idea where life is about to take me now.
“All I know is that I will live the best life I can, with the same mission statement: to inspire and encourage, to show that in this crazy world, there are still a few of us you can count on to be real.
“To show that you fall every once in a while, but you get up. You must. It is our obligation to do so.
“I know it is my obligation to do so. Not just for me, but for all of you.”
Sa bandang huli ng kanyang mensahe, nagpasalamat si Sharon sa lahat ng mga taong patuloy na sumusuporta sa kanya.
“I don’t say this lightly, but I love you.
“For loving me even if you don’t know me as a normal human being and not the girl on tv and in movie reruns.
“I love you for knowing that I am not perfect, and loving me anyway. I love you because you give me a reason to go on doing what I love to do -- singing, acting, hosting...
“ I love you because you make me feel needed and still worth something in this fickle world,” pagtatapos ni Sharon.
SHARON’S FACEBOOK POST. Narito ang kabuuan ng Facebook post ni Sharon: