Part 2. Jackie Forster on breakdown of marriage to Benjie Paras: "We both did awful things but I never started any of it."

Jackie Forster on telling her story: "After sharing these stories, and they [Andre and Kobe] still don’t find it in their hearts to love me... then it will never happen."


Sa pamamagitan ng Instagram, nagbahagi si Jackie Forster ng kanyang buhay bilang young wife sa piling ng kanyang dating asawa na si Benjie Paras.

Dito ay sinabi ni Jackie na naging miserable ang buhay niya sa piling ni Benjie.

Read: Part 1. Jackie Forster recalls her “very miserable life” with ex-husband Benjie Paras

"DEEPEST HURTS AND DISRESPECT." Sa mga kasunod pang posts ni Jackie—kalakip ang larawan nila ng mga anak na sina Andre at Kobe—nagkuwento ang dating aktres tungkol sa mga pinagdaanan niya bilang ina at asawa.

Aniya, “When Andre turned a year old, I got pregnant with Kobe unexpectedly.

"A few months before, I tried to lose weight so I can go back to work.

“I wasn't allowed to go back to my original manager because he [Benjie] didn't trust him... instead he spoke to Tita Girlie [Rodis] to help me with loads of demands and limits.

"Nothing ever transpired because, well... I became pregnant.

“My pregnancy with Kobe didn't come at the best time, but because I had him, I had more reason to try and fix what was wrong with our situation.

“Because now, I was a mother of two, I wanted my children to be proud of a mother who could stand up for herself and do more with her life than just rely on a man..

“As for the day I gave birth... earlier on Sept. 19, I had contractions, and instead of taking me to see my OB, he took [me] to practice, had me stay in the car, and wait for almost 3 hours before we could proceed since kaya ko pa naman daw.

“Another blow to the chest.

“Why did it have to be that way?

“I think if I was really shown love and respect, I would have returned that in folds."

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Paliwanag ni Jackie, "I'm starting off with these stories because it's important for me to show where the deepest hurts and disrespect came from.

“Akala ng lahat bigla lang ako nag-rebel... everybody thinks he's the good guy and I'm the ungrateful bitch and promiscuous one.

“We will get to that later.

“For now… know that I am not stressed, this is therapeutic for me.

"I am just ready to release all that I've kept to myself and to a few close friends before my baby boy#4 comes.

“After sharing these stories, and they [Andre and Kobe] still don't find it in their hearts to love me... then it will never happen.

“Anyhow, God bless your hearts and hoping those who have pain from their situations also find release.

“One day your happy ever after will come. Just always pray and do what you think is right for your situation.

“Sleep well prayer warriors ♡
#Godiswatching”

When Andre turned a year old I got pregnant with Kobe unexpectedly. A few months before I tried to lose weight so I can go back to work. I wasn't allowed to go back to my original manager because he didnt trust him.. instead he spoke to tita Girlie to help me with loads of demands and limits, nothing ever transpired because well.. i became pregnant. My pregancy with Kobe didnt come at the best time but because I had him I had more reason to try and fix what was wrong with our situation. Because now I was a mother of two I wanted my children to be proud of a mother who could stand up for herslef and do more with her life than just rely on a man.. As for the day i gave birth.. earlier on Sept.19 i had contractions and instead of taking me to see my ob he took my to practice had me stay in the car and wait for almost 3 hrs before we could proceed since kaya ko pa naman daw. Another blow to the chest. Why did it have to be that way? I think if i was really shown love and respect I would have returned that in folds.. I'm starting off with these stories because it's important for me to show where the deepest hurts and disrespect came from. Akala ng lahat bigla lang ako nag rebel.. everybody thanks hes the good guy and I'm the ungrateful bitch and promiscuous one. We will get to that later. For now.. know that I am not stressed, this is therapeutic for me. I am just ready to release all that I've kept to myself and to a few close friends before my baby boy#4 comes. After sharing these stories and they still dont find it intheir hearts to love me.. then it will never happen. Anyhow God bless your hearts and hoping those who have pain from their situations also find release. One day your happy ever after will come. Just always pray and do what you think is right for your situation. Sleep well prayer warriors ♡ #Godiswatching

A photo posted by Jacklynne Forster (@jackie_forster) onFeb 20, 2015 at 8:04am PST

“DISHONESTY AND SECRECY.” Sa mga kasunod na posts ni Jackie, isinalaysay naman niya ang mga unang taon ng pagpapalaki nila sa mga anak, ang mga pagsisinungaling daw at paglilihim ni Benjie sa kanya.

Kalakip pa rin nito ang mga larawan ni Jackie kasama ang mga anak nung bata pa ang mga ito.

Lahad ni Jackie, "My constant get up were jeans and t-shirt until after I had Kobe.

"Two months after I had him, I turned 19, and decided to change my wardrobe so I can feel better about myself.

“This raised more issues and created trouble. Seems most of the time, I dressed inappropriately.

“This isn't where the biggest issues came from, this was just the regular things that we fought about."

Patuloy niya, “The first 2 years of our relationship, the main problem was the dishonesty and secrecy.

“He would often times go missing and would turn off his cellphone so he was unreachable... yes, even during the times I was pregnant."

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Pagbubunyag pa ni Jackie, “I would find out later he went to see his love child. He didn't introduce me to the kid.

“It hurt me a lot and even if it was tough on me at a young age and as insecure as I was, when we would go on trips, I would still buy the kid loads of clothes or some toys to show my 'acceptance' to the situation but never in our 5 years + together would ever meet her.

“In the beginning, an older woman would call our home asking for him in a demanding way. I always wondered why she was rude to me.
This was the woman's mom.

“The story given to me was that the woman he had a child with was just a 'malanding babae' na one night stand and then demanded money from him, otherwise, marriage.

“Now, years later, this is the same story he and his current wife tell people about me... there is a pattern right?

“I guess, kaming mga babae talaga yung may mali.

“Before all these issues about what I supposedly did to my kids came out, his wife was already telling people linked to me why I wasn't fit to be a mother to my chidlren.

“-tbc #imissandloveyouAndreandKobe”

“FAMILY AND FRIENDS KNOW THE TRUTH.” Sinabi rin ni Jackie na sa simula pa lang ng kanilang pagsasama, natamnan na ng mga negatibong punla ang kanyang pagkatao.

Saad niya, “Apparently she and her husband hold the same views. And since she studied psychology - I guess they are right.

“Walang mali si Benjie. Ako lahat ang may problema. Nasa akin lahat ng issues.

"So, together, they unite to make sure my children see me this way.

"So, no matter what I say or do, I'm a bad woman and not fit to be a mother."

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Dagdag ni Jackie, "There is much more to this.

“But these are some details that I think are relevant for people to know that from the very beginning... the negative seeds were planted already and not by me.

“I still kept some friends from that old chapter of my life, 95% of them were his friends… most of which he and my kids aren't in touch with anymore for whatever reason.

“So I can tell you—as much as people who don’t know me want to bad mouth me—my real friends and family know the truth.

“We both did awful things but I never started any of it and I tried to find ways to make things work.

“But some things just aren't meant to be.

“Things wont ever get fixed when the other party is in denial and dishonest.

"Tbc #imissandloveyouAndreandKobe.”

Part2 Apparently she and her husband hold the same views. And since she studied psychology - I guess they are right. Walang mali si Benjie. Ako lahat ang may problema. Nasaakin lahat ng issues. So together they unite to make sure my children see me this way. So matter what I say or do.. I'm a bad woman and not fit to be a mother. There is much more to this. But these are some details that I think are relevant for people to know that from the very beginning... the negative seeds were planted already and not by me. I still kept some friends from that old chapter of my life 95% of them were his friends.. most of which he and my kids aren't intouch with anymore for whatever reason. So i can tell you - as much as people who dont know me want to bad mouth me, - my real friends and family know the truth. We both did awful things but I never started any of it and I tried to find ways to make things work. But somethings just aren't meant to be. Things wont ever get fixed when the other party is in denial and dishonest. Tbc #imissandloveyouAndreandKobe

A photo posted by Jacklynne Forster (@jackie_forster) onFeb 21, 2015 at 6:37am PST

“NOTHING ELSE TO LOSE NOW.” Alam din ni Jackie na may mga magtataas ng kilay sa kanyang mga rebelasyon at akusasyon laban sa dating asawa.

Pero paliwanag niya, “I understand many people will ask why I am sharing this now.

“Because that kid is now an adult, Andre is now a working young man and Kobe is now on his way to doing great things with his life.

“They now have the choice to do what is right... and they have every right to know these things that may have been kept from them for years.

"I believe in being truthful no matter how painful and in timing. It's been way too long. I am glad I finally have more burdens lifted.

“I am happy I'm no longer ashamed or afraid. I have nothing else to lose now.

“For years, I kept quiet for everybody else's sake, taking all the criticism... and wanting to protect their young hearts from even more pain.

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"As I move on with my life, I just want those 3 children to know I cared about them more than I did myself, it's just time to make amends with our past.

“Keeping all these things took a toll on me a long time ago and lead to some self-destructive ways.

"Mostly, I wanted to forget the pain and just find someone who would love me.

"I'm so blessed I snapped out of that wild life within 2years. I am very blessed to have been strong enough to fix my life and turn back to Jesus ♡

“I have great supportive friends and and awesome God!
#everythinghappensforareason

“So never judge people, everybody is indeed going through something we may know nothing about. #imissandloveyouAndreandKobe”

Ang iba sa mga isiniwalat dito ni Jackie ay naibahagi na rin niya sa kanyang eksklusibong panayam sa YES! November 2013 issue.

Part3 *I understand many people will ask why i am sharing this now - Because that kid is now an adult, Andre is now a working young man and Kobe is now on his way to doing great things with his life. They now have the choice to do what is right.. and they have every right to know these things that may have been kept from them for years. I believe in being truthful no matter how painful and in timing. Its been way too long. I am glad I finally have more burdens lifted. I am happy Im no longer ashamed or afraid. I have nothing else to lose now. For years i kept quite for everybody elses sake, taking all the criticism.. and wanting to protect their young hearts from even more pain. As i move on with my life i just want those 3 children to know i cared about them more than I did myself its just time to make amends with our past. Keeping all these things took a toll on me a long time ago and lead to some self destructive ways. Mostly i wanted to forget the pain and just find someone who would love me. I'm so blessed I snapped out of that wild life within 2years. I am very blessed to have been strong enough to fix my life and turn back to Jesus ♡ I have great supportive friends and and awesome God! #everythinghappensforareason So never judge people, everybody is indeed going through something we may know nothing about. #imissandloveyouAndreandKobe

A photo posted by Jacklynne Forster (@jackie_forster) onFeb 21, 2015 at 6:38am PST

Ed's Note: Bukas ang PEP.ph (Philippine Entertainment Portal) sa panig ni Benjie Paras at iba pang mga sangkot sa isyung ito kaugnay ng mga naging pahayag ni Jackie Forster.


NEXT: Part 3. Jackie Forster: "All I want is to be the mother I know I can be..."


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