(UPDATED) Part 3. Jackie Forster: "All I want is to be the mother I know I can be..."

Labis na pangungulila sa piling ng mga anak ang nag-udyok daw kay Jackie Forster upang magpaabot ng mensahe kina Andre at Kobe, na kasalukuyang nasa kustodiya ng ama nitong si Benjie Paras, sa pamamagitan ng kanyang Instagram account.


Inilahad ni Jackie Forster ang kanyang pinagdaanan noong nagsasama pa sila ng dating asawang si Benjie Paras.

Ginawa ito ng dating aktres sa pamamagitan ng Instagram, kung saan paunti-unti ay isinalaysay niya ang mga pangyayaring gusto niyang makarating sa mga anak na sina Andre at Kobe.

Umaasa raw kasi si Jackie na ngayong nasa tamang edad na ang mga anak ay maiintindihan na nila ang kanyang panig.


CHILDREN’S CUSTODY. Sa mga huling posts ni Jackie, ibinahagi ng dating Regal baby ang kopya ng isang court order noon na nag-uutos na maaari niyang makasama ang mga anak ng ilang araw sa Amerika.

Kuwento niya, “Last time I had my kids was December 2003.

“A few months before I signed off papers to give their father custody while I study nursing in the U.S. since I wasn't getting enough work and the right kind of work in Manila.

“That paperwork was made legal sometime during the holidays. (This was the Boracay trip I supposedly did 'something.')

“In January, I realized that there was always an excuse as to why I couldn't see them when I was scheduled to pick them up.

“Not once did their father or even a counselor talk to me about what I supposedly did... nobody came to me concerned about anything.

“So I fought to have the custody back to joint... I decided I would just stay in Manila and sacrifice.

“While the custody was an issue, their father wanted to take the kids out of the country (I think Pacman had a fight in Vegas).

"Because I thought it would be good for everybody, I agreed with the condition that I could also take the kids to see my family in California.
#imissandloveyouAndreandKobe.

“Verbally he agreed, I told him he can drop off the kids at my mom's so he felt safe and knew where she lived and where the kids would be staying.

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“I realized he never acknowledged the paperwork that had my mom's address, contact number, and dates that the kids would be with me.

“This is when a few of you messaged me about seeing me run after Benjie at the airport.

"He was supposed to sign and acknowledge the document and he kept ditching me.

"I'm not sure if someone tipped him off that I was at the airport waiting because he managed to run straight through inspections.

“I guess my kids went ahead. I never saw them that night.

“While I was in the U.S., I called their father's cellphone about 5x, it just rang each time...

"Then I got hold of his wife's number through mutual friends, and she picked up once, just listened, and hung up...

"After that, I wasn't able to contact them anymore throughout the whole U.S. trip.

"I spent money going to the U.S. just so I can bring my boys to see my family.

“I dont understand why, if I'm such a bad person did they also keep my kids from my family and our mutual friends???

"Why didn't anybody talk to me about whatever I was supposedly doing wrong—for the sake of the boys!?

"It really hurts hearing people think I am just after my kids now. As if may kailangan ako sa kanila.

“All i want is to be the mother I know I can be and have always wanted to be to them. Thats all.
#Godiswatching #imissandloveyouAndreandKobe”

Sa huli, isang post ang ibinahagi ni Jackie na naglalaman ng makahulugang mga salita tungkol sa “paghihintay.”

#GodsTimingisAlwaysPerfect ♡ Your blessing will come #inGodsTime ♡ #keepYourEyesOnChrist

A photo posted by Jacklynne Forster (@jackie_forster) onFeb 21, 2015 at 10:11pm PST

A GOOD MOTHER? Ngayon lamang Lunes ng gabi, February 23, ay muling nag-post ng kanyang saloobin si Jackie.

Sa pagkakataong ito ay inihayag ni Jackie ang kanyang damdamin tungkol sa pagiging ina niya.

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Saad niya, "When I had Andre, was I a good mother? I'd like to think I was.

"At least I did what I thought was right and I tried my best. I played with him mornings, tried to be the one to feed him. I was the one who pushed him in the stroller or carried him in a baby carrier. I took him to playdates, I went with him on field trips and watched his school presentations...

"But I dont think I was as good to him as I am now with Jared and Caleigh, but then again, I was only 16 when I started off.

"I don't think they understand that. In retrospect, it deserves a lot of respect not shame or insult.

"I lost a lot of my youth trying to be the best mother I could without much support and being in and out of depression.

"Life was anything but easy for me even though I hid it well on the outside.

"I'm glad I shared many stories with family and a few close friends. I had an outlet that helped keep me sane and today I have people who can attest to what I went through. ♡♡♡

"God really gives his biggest battles to the strongest ♡♡♡ So stay strong with your head held high warriors! Better days are ahead.
#HaveFaith #Godiswatching"

Ang iba sa mga isiniwalat dito ni Jackie ay naibahagi na rin niya sa kanyang eksklusibong panayam sa YES! November 2013 issue.


When i had Andre was I, a good mother? I'd like to think I was, atleast i did what I thought was right and I tried my best. I played with him mornings, tried to be the one to feed him. I was the one who pushed him in the stroller or carried him in a baby carrier. I took him to playdates, i went with him on field trips and watched his school presentations .. but I dont think i was as good to him as I am now with Jared and Caleigh but then again i was only 16 when I started off. I don't think they understand that. In retrospect at deserves alot of respect not shame or insult. I lost a lot of my youth trying to be the best mother I could without much support and being in and out of depression. Life was anything but easy for me even though I hid it well on the outside. I'm glad I shared many stories with family and a few close friends. I had an outlet that helped keep me sane and today I have people who can attest to what I went through. ♡♡♡ God really gives his biggest battles to the strongest ♡♡♡ So stay strong with your head held high warriors! Better days are ahead. #HaveFaith #Godiswatching #imissandloveyouAndreandKobe

A photo posted by Jacklynne Forster (@jackie_forster) onFeb 23, 2015 at 6:42am PST


Ed's Note: Bukas ang PEP.ph (Philippine Entertainment Portal) sa panig ni Benjie Paras kaugnay sa mga naging pahayag ni Jackie Forster.


Read: Part 1. Jackie Forster recalls her “very miserable life” with ex-husband Benjie Paras

Read: Part 2. Jackie Forster on breakdown of marriage to Benjie Paras: "We both did awful things but I never started any of it."

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