Naging bukas ang pag-iisip at damdamin ni Alice Dixson nang talakayin ang kasalukuyan niyang estado bilang single woman muli.
Malayang nakipagtalakayan ang aktres sa PEP.ph (Philippine Entertainment Portal) at iba pang miyembro ng media sa presscon ng When The Love Is Gone kagabi, November 19.
Unang napag-usapan ang divorce ng kanyang kasal na inaprubahan ng korte noong February 2013.
Ikinasal si Alice sa web designer na si Ronnie Miranda, sa isang civil ceremony sa Vancouver, Canada, noong 1999.
Pero pagkalipas ng halos labindalawang taon ay nag-file si Alice ng divorce noong 2012 dahil sa “irreconcilable differences.”
Kuwento ng 44-year-old actress, “When the divorce was granted, it was very difficult for the first few months.
“No... it was always been difficult even the year before.
"But like all things, you know, it will come to pass.
“Up to now, honestly, nalulungkot pa rin ako.
“But heart is moving on and I’m still dreaming...
"I still have dreams and, I think, that is most important.”
RECOVERY. Ibinuhos daw ni Alice sa trabaho ang kanyang kalungkutan at masakit na karanasan.
Sabi niya, “Hay naku, when this film [When The Love Is Gone] was just starting to shoot, that was I think in March or April...
“Hay naku, bago pa lang, emosyon ko sa pelikula was just bursting out.
“There were shots we’ve done na, even months after, but I remember how it felt.
"Kumbaga, raw pa, e.
“I have a lot of pain that time and na-translate sa trabaho ko.
"And now, kapag nag-e-emote ako ng sad or brokenhearted or whatever, I have a hard time jumping into the scene, kasi hindi na siya fresh.
“But... that’s why I think that my heart is recovering na.”
Naikuwento rin ni Alice sa PEP kung ano ang ginagawa niya para maka-recover o maka-move on na nang tuluyan.
“It’s just time—time heals all wounds. And, yeah, work.
“I have a great family and support group.
"I stay active and I try not to dwell on the negatives, and I try to move forward.
DATING AGAIN. Kasama sa “recovery” ni Alice ang mag-date.
“I have suitors, but I try not to take them seriously.
“I try to date again and... doon pa lang ako sa stage na ‘yan.”
Dagdag niya, “Yeah, still not from showbiz—yun lang ang puwede kong sabihin.
“I don’t like dating guys from my industry.”
Bakit naman ayaw niyang ma-involve sa isang taga-showbiz?
Paliwanag ni Alice, “First all, I haven’t met an actor that’s interesting and engaging enough to have a rapport with me on a romantic level.
“I’m very choosy kasi and I really... when I look for a partner, I want it to be a long-lasting relationship.
“And I notice in showbiz na there’s not a lot of that.”
Inalam namin sa kanya kung may pinagbabatayan siyang standards pagdating sa kanyang mga manliligaw.
“Yeah!” natatawang pag-amin ni Alice.
“First of all, he must be tall.
“No, really, he should have a cool personality—he doesn’t have to be gorgeous or good-looking.
“Kasi ang nagdadala talaga sa akin is a good conversationalist—somebody whom I can share my ideas and life stories—and we both laugh.”
Handa na ba siya sa panibagong relasyon ngayon?
“Yes," sagot niya.
"‘Coz at this point, I started dating again.
"But I’ve said this, I don’t really see myself getting married again.
"You know... and I don’t care if I would eat my words, pero at this point in my life, I don’t really see the point."
LABORATORY BABY. Takot ba siyang tumandang nag-iisa?
Sabi ni Alice, “But, one of my dreams is really to have a baby one day.
“So when that Mr. Right comes along, hopefully... yes, hopefully.”
Takot ba siyang tumandang mag-isa?
“It’s just that eveybody’s telling na, ‘Sayang naman ang ganda mo, Ms. Alice, kung hindi ka magkaka-baby.’
“I thought about it and it’s one of my dreams. Pero, God-willing na lang.”
Puwede ba sa kanya yung baby lang kahit wala siyang asawa?
“Puwede rin!” natatawang sagot niya.
“Actually, I’ve decided that if I don’t find a life partner, I would probably find a way—whether it’s biologically or not—to raise a child kahit isa lang.
“Not every woman wants to experience that actually.
“There was a time in my life na I didn’t want to have a kid, but some women change their minds and some don’t.
“Pero me, if there’s still an opportunity to have one, I would welcome it.
"But if not... I don’t really have expectations on a lot of things, not just about family life or relationships or business partnerships.
“I try not to put a lot of expectations at baka hindi ko ma-achieve.”
Pero sa tingin ba ni Alice, ang isang anak ay magkukumpleto ng buhay niya?
“I don’t know,” pasubali niya.
“I think... hindi ko alam kasi.
“All my friends have kids now, and then some would talk about how great to have a kid.
"But some naman would say na, ‘It’s overrated.’
“Iba-iba naman, so hindi ko rin alam.
"I would only know siguro when I cross the bridge and get there.”
MOVIE REMAKE. Sa puntong ito ay napag-usapan naman ang pelikulang When The Love is Gone, na ipapalabas sa November 27.
Movie remake ito ng 1983 film classic na Nagalit Ang Buwan Sa Haba Ng Gabi, na idinirek ng yumaong si Danni Zialcita.
Ang bagong version ay idinirek ni Andoy Ranay.
Kasama ni Alice sa pelikula sina Gabby Concepcion, Cristine Reyes, at Jake Cuenca.
Ano ang pakiramdam ni Alice na siya ang gumanap sa dating role ng actress-director na si Laurice Guillen?
Maraming memorable scenes noon si Laurice kung kaya’t marami ang nag-aabang kung nabigyan ba ni Alice ng hustisya ang role niya rito.
Sabi ni Alice, “Laurice a great actress and also a talented director.
"To be compared to her, I’m very humbled.
“Our story is similar, pero hindi siya... merong twists kami to make it different.
“Yung lines that were most memorable during that time and was maintained here sa movie namin.
“I hope magustuhan nila, and everyone’s telling me na nagandahan sila sa dialogue and they’re gonna watch it.
“If there are those na hindi na nagustuhan, which I have yet to hear, I would take it as constructive criticism for me to learn and improve.
“We can’t please everyone naman, di ba?”
Nag-evolve na raw si Alice bilang isang aktres. Ano ang masasabi niya rito?
“I feel good,” nangingiting sagot niya.
“You can’t stay as a mediocre actress and not evolve.
“You can’t stay as a beginning actress and stay in the industry for a long time kung hindi ka mag-i-improve.
“So I try in every role that I get, and to experiment.
"Sa awa ng Diyos, may nagagawa naman ako.
“This time, I became more liberal, and that’s because I’m no longer a teeny-bopper.”