Aminado si Jake Cuenca, 35, na dumaan siya sa mga pagkakataong kinukuwestiyon niya ang kanyang lugar sa entertainment industry.
"Yeah, multiple times, maraming beses nang nangyari," pag-amin ni Jake sa panayam ng PEP.ph (Philippine Entertainment Portal).
"When you feel na nalalaos ka na or people don't care anymore kasi ang bilis ng turnover [sa showbiz], it's very, very fast.
"All actors feel it. I think all actors go through impostor syndrome. We do question kung kaya pa ba namin or we do question if we're gonna perform today."
Ang impostor syndrome, ayon sa verywellmind.com, ay inner pyschological experience kunsaan madalas na nakararanas ang tao ng self-doubt kahit sa aspeto ng kanyang buhay kunsaan siya ay matagumpay.
Nabanggit ito ni Jake nang ihalintulad niya ang kanyang role bilang over-the-hill pornstar sa mga artistang may feeling na laos na.
Gaganap kasi si Jake bilang pornstar sa upcoming stage play na Dick Talk, na proud at excited siyang paghandaan ngayon.
Ayon kay Jake, hindi niya tinatambayan ang pakiramdam na aniya'y impostor syndrome.
Paliwanag ni Jake: "Self-believe, I think you have to believe in yourself. What I lean on is my formal training. What I lean towards is to studying more of what I have in front of me.
"Kunwari, I have a TV show, or if I have, let's say a play that's the biggest project ever, there's nothing more important, nothing bigger, nothing smaller in this project.
"When I frame it that way, I don't even feel like parang comparing things in the past or feel like I did bigger before.
"Parang lagi na lang, whatever it may be, whether it's a TV show, a play or a movie, that's the biggest role of my life.
"I mean, I don't know what tomorrow has in store [for me], I could die tomorrow, so this is the performance of a lifetime."
Kung ang ibang mga artista ay tanggap na tapos na ang panahon nila, may ilan din ang di matanggap pag nasasabihan ng "laos."
Para kay Jake, hindi siya takot na mangyari ito sa kanya dahil hindi raw kasikatan ang kinatatakutan niyang mawala sa kanya.
Kinu-consider daw niya ang sarili bilang "trimedia actor" na aktibo sa film, TV, at theater.
"Me, no, coz I have theater. For me, natatakot lang naman akong mawala lahat ito kasi baka di na ako makaarte," diin niya.
"That's the only thing I am afraid of — na baka di ko na magawa ang pinakamahal kong ginagawa which is to act.
"But the thing is, when I discover the world of theater, then I have this forever. Then I'm never afraid that I'm not gonna act again.
"I'm different from all of them. I'd like to consider myself very different from everyone else. I don't, like, do like what everyone else does, nor I do like to be categorized like everyone else."
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ON DEALING WITH INSECURITIES
Hindi rin itinago ni Jake ang pagkakaroon ng insecurities bilang artista, pero hindi raw para hayaan niya iyong maging sagabal para magsumikap sa kanyang trabaho.
"I have a lot of insecurities. I have many insecurities," pag-amin ni Jake.
Sabi rin niya: "Again, self-believe. I think it's really important for an actor to really believe in himself kasi they're not gonna invest in you if you don't.
"They're not gonna invest on the timid guy who doesn't know if he's gonna do it or not. They're gonna invest in the guy who is confident and who believes in himself and who can bring something to the table.
"I've been to so many different stints in my career, I've been hated and loved and hated over and over again.
"It's conditioned me to be more realistic, it's conditioned me to be just myself."
JAKE cuenca's tv shows
Ang determinasyon ni Jake na hamunin ang sarili sa paggawa ng iba-ibang roles ay tila epektibo dahil hindi siya nawalan ng trabaho kahit pandemya.
Napanood siya sa Walang Hanggang Paalam na umere mula September 2020-April 2021 sa Kapamilya Channel. Gumawa rin siya ng teleserye sa TV5, ang Ate Ng Ate Ko, na umere mula November 2021 to February 2021.
Bumalik siya sa ABS-CBN at bumida sa teleseryeng Viral Scandal mula November 2021 to May 2022. Bahagi rin siya sa cast ng ongoing Kapamilya prime-time series na The Iron Heart.
Bumida rin si Jake sa romantic-comedy series na K-Love ng VIU at bumida sa 2022 Metro Manila Film Festival na My Father, Myself.
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