Kris Aquino admitted that she was “humbled” by a professional crisis that she went through these past three weeks.
She said, “I’ll be honest, ha? It’s been three weeks of hell.
“I won’t go into the details about what that hell has been, but it has been hell.
“Because several things that I thought I was going to start were delayed.
“I cried myself to sleep until Friday night.”
Kris further said that she only felt better after her sister Pinky accompanied her to hear mass at Our Lady of Manaoag in Pangasinan last Friday.
“Lo and behold! Pagdating namin, it was the last mass.
“Parang pinaparamdam sa akin na, 'Uy, kung may setback man ngayon, God just wants to see how you’ll behave while you’re waiting.'
“It was after that, finally, parang I got home and I was no longer crying because of what I was hoping to happen that did not happen.
“I started crying out of gratitude.
“[I felt na] oo nga naman, you’re showing me na meron pa akong puwedeng gawin.
“Huwag na ako matakot, and meron ako parating masasandalan.”
The Queen of All Media made this revelation in front of selected entertainment reporters and about a hundred participants who attended Ariel detergent’s ad campaign launch, held at Shooting Gallery Studios in Makati City, this Tuesday, October 11.
Kris later confirmed to PEP.ph (Philippine Entertainment Portal) and other reporters that the “setback” she was referring to was the TV show that she was supposed to start taping last September 22.
But Kris remained non-committal about whether the said show would still push through or not.
“Alam niyo kasi if pag-usapan ko ‘yan, mas lalong hindi maaayos.
“And sobrang taas ng respeto ko sa nakausap ko na pareho kaming naging collateral damage lang.
“Na ibalato niyo sa akin siya, kasi feeling ko, gusto niyo rin siya as a person na huwag na nating pag-usapan pa.”
Last September 11, it would be recalled that Kris officially bade farewell to ABS-CBN after 20 years of being an exclusive Kapamilya artist.
The Queen of All Media also announced that same night that she signed up for a TV show with APT Entertainment, a production house owned by Tony Tuviera.
Kris is currently under the talent management of Triple A, which is also owned by Tuviera.
NO TV NETWORK CONTRACT YET. As for her much-speculated network transfer, Kris said that she’s still open to doing a TV show with either ABS-CBN, GMA-7, or other TV networks for that matter.
An entertainment reporter asked: Is it possible for her to return to her former home network?
Kris replied, “Yes. Alam niyo, hindi naman ito Billy Bush situation in America...
“I don’t have an existing TV contract with anybody.
“So, if its God’s will, it might happen. And I’d be the happiest person.
“But if it’s also God’s will that GMA will welcome me, I’d be great.
“And if, come on, kapag sinabi ng CNN na part ng package is you get to meet Anthony Bourdain, I’d sign in right now.”
Kris also admitted she misses her ABS-CBN family and her former daily grind at work.
“I miss them. Ganun kasimple.
“I miss them. I miss the work. I miss what I do. I miss the daily conversations.
“I miss the 12 midnight text na ‘Eto yung nabago sa schedule.’ I miss my cameramen...
“We’ve been like a family. This is also like an annulment.”
KRIS: “NATAKOT AKO DUN SA INIWAN KO.” On hindsight, Kris noted that ABS-CBN had always given her good career opportunities up until her contract ended last March.
“It was my fault. I can still be there now. I was stupid.
“There were circumstances in February that prevented me from signing a really prepared, fair, easy, two-page contract...na in-agree-han halos lahat ng gusto ko.
“But none of you knew that was the time na nag-Abu Sayyaf threat.
“There was also parang health issues..."
Last April 27, it would be recalled that Kris's brother — then incumbent President Benigno "Noynoy" Aquino III — announced that there have been intelligence reports about Abu Sayyaf's plot to kidnap Kris Aquino
It was also around the same time Kris took a break from work due to her health problems.
Kris added, “Siguro at the time, akala ko pagbalik ko, may space pa.
“I overestimated my worth.”
LESSONS LEARNED. Another reporter asked: Is she scared of what’s next for her career?
The 45-year-old TV host-actress answered: “You know, what I was afraid of was not having that piece of paper, that contract.
“It was the first time in 20 years I had none.
“And yun. Yung parang, it’s not starting something new — hindi yun ang kinatakutan ko.
“Natakot ako dun sa iniwan ko. Kasi minsan talaga, yung regret mo dun sa iniwan mo na, ‘Bakit ko ba iniwan?’
“Not to say na I needed to go through this. Kasi cliche as it may sound, di ba, yung value ng anything in life, mas malalaman mo lang talaga kapag nawala sa ‘yo?
“At sa akin, temporary lang naman nawala.
“So, ngayon, mas alam ko na, ‘Oh my God! For all those times na sinungitan ko yung staff ko, na parang hindi ko ginawang madali ang buhay para sa kanila.
“Ngayon, na-realize ko na, ‘Oo nga naman pala. Ang hirap nang wala ito.’”